Never felt like one of the girls?

So look, I was born female and I know I'm a transman but i come to think what if I'm transgender because I could never relate to other girls? I mean back when I was in middle school I hated what girls talked about. Boys, fashion and drama. I remember I use to tell one of the girls to switch the dam topic. Talk about your favorite sports or let's arm wrestle. They ignored me.. so I try to hang out with my guy friends but they told me to leave because they were talking about stuff. Like guy stuff. I honestly didn't give to fucks. I wanted to hear. They told me to go hang out with the girls because I'm a girl too.

They wanted there guy time. Then I left and told them fuck you. Almost wanted to fight but I could get suspended lol
So I decided to play a little game on one of the girls. When they all went in the bathroom. I grabbed the girls make up and put it up way high so she couldn't reach. I was laughing my ass off. Then for some reason she started to cry. What a pussy? I was thinking?

Her friends started yelling at me telling me I'm a bitch. I actually didn't give a fuck because I was a stupid asshole back then in middle school.

I then did the unthinkable and ran with her makeup and peed on it. I told her I'll give it back to her. She got it back but was wondering why it smelled like piss. I told her the truth. She literally started crying again saying that I'm disgusting. Her friend told on me and I got send to the principals office.

There was another incident I ran up to a girl at break time and smacked her ass 2 times. She said wtf? I told her she has a nice ass. The reason I did because one of my friends said I'll give you 5 bucks to smack that girl. I did and now I regret it lol

I did crazy shit in middle school. They put me in the girls locker room and that was the hardest for me. As someone who liked girls it was hard for me to not look. Its like putting a biological born boy in the girls locker room. He wouldn't ignore. So I did

So the girl in the locker room took her bra off and took her panties off. I couldn't stop staring at her pretty body. I was a horny teenager. I couldn't understand why other girls couldn't relate to my urges.

The teachers said I could use the nurses office. I was glad

So you see guys this is what I'm talking about when I can't relate to other girls. When the girl said I was a lesbian I didn't feel like that. I felt like a guy who couldn't control himself. That he liked girls. Female pronouns like you go girlfriend, sister and lady made me feel sick. Learning about the female reproductive system in health class made me upset. I didn't like that I had this body with an egg that had to have little sperms to fertilize it. I felt that I should have been born with the ability to create sperm. I wanted to be the one to be the father, not the mother. It was so hard for me. It was so hard that I developed with breast and had periods. This never felt right. I felt like I was trapped. My first period was the worse day of my life. I wanted to die. I couldn't live with it.

Once I found out what was wrong with me. Every thing change for the better.

I'm now a happy transman who's soon going to have a wife. I'm glad to know why my experience as a girl wasn't right for me. It makes sense why I touched those girls. Every raising hormonal horny teenage boy would. I was just like the boys, because I really was a boy. I had gender identity disorder.