If you have an armful of scars (as I do) you will know that cutting is not just for show or attention. It is a serious problem. I also am over it however if you did it for a good reason don't be bothered by your scars. I don't want anyone to see either. I don't blame you. I was bullied by classmates, totally neglected by my family, and abused terribly by a boyfriend that I shouldn't have even have had because i was young and should have been enjoying life but relied on him to live (eat, get to school etc) Now I wish I hadn't cut because I have scars but I don't feel dumb for doing it because cutting is a mental thing and at the time it felt right. It's very easy to question your choices months or years later (when things are different) but you made the decisions that you did while whatever was going on so there must have been a good reason.
Why'd you do it? It's hard to remember but I believe I was curious. So I did it and I loved it. I was fascinated with everything about it. It kinda felt like Christmas when you open a present (break a razor to get the blades out) rush to get it out of the package and use it. Does that make sense? I'll have to say that I wasn't in the best mental state of my life (depression w/ psychosis). Not sleeping and being paranoid/hearing things along with being alone all of the time caused it I think. :P
Well, I get what you mean. That's how I felt too! But I did it because I had these nightmares that wouldn't leave me, and it got to a point where not only could I not sleep, I was hallucinating in the day and I couldn't get away, you know?
So I deduced that physical pain releases endorphins and would make me happier.
Truthfully, it did work.
But still not worth it.
My Scars Scare Me. IIN?
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If you have an armful of scars (as I do) you will know that cutting is not just for show or attention. It is a serious problem. I also am over it however if you did it for a good reason don't be bothered by your scars. I don't want anyone to see either. I don't blame you. I was bullied by classmates, totally neglected by my family, and abused terribly by a boyfriend that I shouldn't have even have had because i was young and should have been enjoying life but relied on him to live (eat, get to school etc) Now I wish I hadn't cut because I have scars but I don't feel dumb for doing it because cutting is a mental thing and at the time it felt right. It's very easy to question your choices months or years later (when things are different) but you made the decisions that you did while whatever was going on so there must have been a good reason.
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It seemed to be a good reason at the time. It was a lot, but I do wish I'd picked another option. Something not quite so physically scarring!
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Why'd you do it? It's hard to remember but I believe I was curious. So I did it and I loved it. I was fascinated with everything about it. It kinda felt like Christmas when you open a present (break a razor to get the blades out) rush to get it out of the package and use it. Does that make sense? I'll have to say that I wasn't in the best mental state of my life (depression w/ psychosis). Not sleeping and being paranoid/hearing things along with being alone all of the time caused it I think. :P
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Well, I get what you mean. That's how I felt too! But I did it because I had these nightmares that wouldn't leave me, and it got to a point where not only could I not sleep, I was hallucinating in the day and I couldn't get away, you know?
So I deduced that physical pain releases endorphins and would make me happier.
Truthfully, it did work.
But still not worth it.