My sanity is a time bomb

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1. I'm a pathological liar,I live several lives,I have an identity crisis,I act in a different way with every single person that I know.I don't who I am.
2. I have histrionic personality disorder.(I'm an attention whore,I don't care if the attention is negative/positive)
I HATE having this disorder,I'm trying to be ignorant and I just can't be like that because of this.
3. Severe depression and suicidal thoughts every night.Relatively ''ok'' during daytime.
4. Social anxiety disorder.
5. I'm an introvert trying to act like an extrovert,this makes me regret at night most things that I do during the day.
6. I cut myself,I enjoy self mutilation.
7. I've never loved someone and I don't want to.
8. I fuck animals--> cow,dog and dead cats(so I can widen their sphincter with a knife,otherwise it's impossible)
9. I don't like vaginas,I do only anal.I can perform auto fellatio and self fuck.
10. I don't know if I'm gay,straight,bisexual.
11. I am a drug addict.

I hope I didn't disturb anyone with my self characterization,I tried to be as less vulgar as possible,I just need desperate help about this,I need some opinions,it's very important because for some reasons I can't go to a psychologist/psychiatrist.
I hope I can count on you people,do you think I'm a madman?

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  • TheGodThatFailed
    9 years ago | pl

    Waffle.

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  • jeebley
    9 years ago | pl

    Meditation?

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    • Necrozoophile
      9 years ago | pl

      It didn't help me as much as I thought it would.

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      • jeebley
        9 years ago | pl

        Hmmm... You could try snapping an elastic band on your wrist any time you feel like having sex with dead cats?

        There's this joke in the meantime: http://isitnormal.com/story/is-it-normal-to-find-this-very-funny-169415/

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        • Necrozoophile
          9 years ago | pl

          Pretty amusing..I must admit,it reminded me of the gravity of the things that I do,until I started laughing and realized that I don't care about that.

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          • jeebley
            9 years ago | pl

            Haha... Do you really not care? I thought it was pretty funny too... But for me the reality of those things is way too extreme to seriously contemplate. That's the only really far out part of your post; is that dead animal sex. I hope its a lie.
            Maybe switch to stuffed animals at least?

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            • Necrozoophile
              9 years ago | pl

              Have you heard about criminal cutoffs?
              I'm far beyond that point.
              There is some sort of switch mechanism in the brain that makes you not care about any consequences and this switch is ''pressed'' suddenly and when you least expect it.

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