My parents pretend i don't exist

Okay so this is a long one so please bear with me. There's a lot going on in my family life so any advice would be greatly appreciated. Okay so my parents and I have never been really close. As a matter of fact, we talk twice max every week unless it's something important.

Recently, I was hospitalized for about a week as a result of not being able to eat anything without throwing up. I lost about 10 pounds and I was already extremely underweight, leading me to about 85 pounds. I was there through my birthday and my dad visited me for about 30 mins, and didn't even wish me happy birthday. My mom and sister only saw me once during the whole week. When my mom got there, she proceeded to make me cry by lecturing me about how it was my fault that I ended up in the hospital, although it was my digestive system. The night before my birthday, I had to get my first surgery (biopsy) and none of them were there.

I left the hospital and the medical bill came out to a whopping $80,000. I, of course, felt awful that this amounted to this much and that my parents had to pay by taking money out of their retirement funds since I was still a minor at the time. In addition, they would keep telling me that it was my fault and made me feel extremely guilty.

On a daily basis, I would feel like an outsider. My mom would take my younger sister out to a nice restaurant and leave me at home. They would make jokes and watch movies with my sister, but never me. My mom bought food, whether it would be snacks, fruit, pasta, etc. and hide it from me, only letting my sister eat them. I would eat one or two meals a day because there was no food in the house. I have resulted to going downstairs at 3 am every night to search for food when they are not awake. I would wake up on the weekends, only to find that my family was gone and didn't tell me where they were going. My dad constantly calls me lazy, sleeping too much, and that I have no direction or goals in life. They did not care about the fact that I was anemic.

In addition, we moved from Maryland to Washington recently, so I had no close friends or anything. I felt pretty alone and would cry myself to sleep every night.

My mom would constantly talk bad about me to other adults, saying that I was "below average" in school and never took care of myself. I thought I did well with mostly A's and one or two B's but I guess not.

I thought my solution would be to go out and get my own food but I have no money currently, especially with my parents refusing to give me any money even to buy simply necessities. I am in the process of applying for a job. However, I am tired of being hungry and tired 24/7 with no energy to complete my schoolwork. As a result of being a new student with no close friends or teachers, my grades have gone downhill as well. I've been wearing the same clothes forever since I cannot afford anything else. My parents buy my sister everything, from an iPhone X to expensive clothes. She's 11. I am not complaining but it would be nice to have my family feel like people who love me.

Please help. Thank you.

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Comments ( 19 )
  • LloydAsher

    Report to child services through you school. Or possibly try to get set up through a mentor ship program. If they don’t care for you don’t feel bad detaching and going your own path. Try getting an apprenticeship for a trade so you have an income. Anyway just try to move forward.

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    • strugglingstudent

      I am definitely scared of reaching out for help. The problem is that I would be leaving for college soon anyway so should I just deal with it until then?

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      • LloydAsher

        Also NEVER try to sort your life out when you are at college. That’s not what college is for. Unlike the movies college is for being trained in a very particular way for a job or school. Don’t need baggage to add to the hassle. Trust me I’ve seen it too much.

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        • strugglingstudent

          Got it, thanks for the advice :)

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          • LloydAsher

            Glad to be of service to a random person. Hope your life is far better in the future.

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      • LloydAsher

        Also get a part time job if your classes are being paid for by parents or loans. Eat some food l, workout like 20 minutes a day by push ups and sit ups get yourself some protein shakes to deal with the hunger and manage your time well.

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      • LloydAsher

        Now who’s paying for college and what major?

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        • strugglingstudent

          I am trying to get scholarships but as of now, I don't know. I have money saved up from piano competitions when I was younger but only my parents can access it.

          I want to go into pre-med and I really love the subject of medicine but it is very expensive.

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          • LloydAsher

            Cut the pre med honestly, just temporarily. You need to focus on getting your nesseities in order first, get a trade then come back to it in ten years or so with a fresh mind and a way to earn a living for yourself.

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  • Sunshinegirl

    Being treated with distain by your family can create a deep anger that can stay with you for many, many years of your life.

    It can disable you.

    It takes away from the momentum you need to launch your life.
    And you can wind up walking with an emotional limp forever.

    You will have to find some other source of support. before too much of your young adulthood gets eaten up by time.

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  • IrishPotato

    Report to child services. This isn't okay.

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  • Mrown

    Since you're already trying to get a job, maybe start a gofoundme? I'm sure some people would be willing to donate some money. Sorry I can't do more for you...

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    • strugglingstudent

      I'll try that, thank you though :)

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  • 19sammi91

    Well.your doing the best you can atm.. the job is a great place to start! When you do get a job and your first pay (assuming you have a card of some sort? If not get your own and not tell them since they clearly dont really care) it'll change once that's in motion.. you'll hopefully meet new people and make friends, you'll get money to pay for food and eventually pay for stuff you want.. itll get easier :)
    Just wondering how old are you now??

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    • strugglingstudent

      I'm currently 17

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      • 19sammi91

        At a such a young age.. sounds like you've had rougher life then me.. n my life didnt start out to flash...

        Well consider this.. when your 18 (granted 18 the legal adult age) you'll be able to start to decide things for yourself.. if you dont have any close friends where you are and granted you've kept in contact with your friends from your previous school.. IF you would want to and IF your friends are willing to help and IF it's not too far away from where you are atm.. there should be no reason why (once you've turned 18 and finish what schooling you got left if any) you cant ask some of your friends to do some couch surfing for a while looking for a job or whatever you decide to do...???
        (Hope that make sense lol sorry if it didnt haha)

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  • sissycakes

    this is horrible. i experience this on a much smaller scale. i feel left out. when i say something it is because i want to be left out. maybe they think that you are not wanting to be included. also when you are sick maybe they are upset and cannot handle it and take it out on you.

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  • Maniac_Squid

    Get out of there. Please. Try hard to find people, and get yourself out. They are not ok. Report them to the police/child services. It isn't ok what is happening

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  • awasim878

    I want to say only don't care what will happen its your life you can do everything which you want.

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