My mother purposely makes me feel bad?
A long time ago I suffered from depression, and a psychotic disorder. I harmed myself and had suicidal thoughts. After recovering fully and reassuring my family that I was okay my mother still brings up the topic one year later. It pains me to talk about it, it brings back bad memories and reminds me of all the bad stuff that happened back then. It makes me feel like crying.
One day I asked my mother why she was so angry, she told me “I’ll embarrass you in public, you think I can’t?” She went off asking me “Do you still cut?” “Are you still having suicidal thoughts?” She knows well that I promised her that I was fine, on top of that I hate talking about stuff like this.
I tell her to not bring it up and to be quiet but she gets angrier, “Why? If you don’t tell me you’re gonna be a crazy person. Do you want to end up in the mental ward? Do you know what it’s like being insane?”
She also mentions my dieting, whenever I say that I am not hungry she has to comment: “Why? Are you starving yourself? Are you vomitting?” My eating habits aren’t like that. I only want to shed a couple pounds but she takes it like I’m some mental patient. (I’m all happy and better these days thankfully)
I hate the fact that my mother does this, I don’t know what to do about it, it angers me so much that I just feel like punching a wall.