My mother purposely makes me feel bad?

A long time ago I suffered from depression, and a psychotic disorder. I harmed myself and had suicidal thoughts. After recovering fully and reassuring my family that I was okay my mother still brings up the topic one year later. It pains me to talk about it, it brings back bad memories and reminds me of all the bad stuff that happened back then. It makes me feel like crying.

One day I asked my mother why she was so angry, she told me “I’ll embarrass you in public, you think I can’t?” She went off asking me “Do you still cut?” “Are you still having suicidal thoughts?” She knows well that I promised her that I was fine, on top of that I hate talking about stuff like this.

I tell her to not bring it up and to be quiet but she gets angrier, “Why? If you don’t tell me you’re gonna be a crazy person. Do you want to end up in the mental ward? Do you know what it’s like being insane?”

She also mentions my dieting, whenever I say that I am not hungry she has to comment: “Why? Are you starving yourself? Are you vomitting?” My eating habits aren’t like that. I only want to shed a couple pounds but she takes it like I’m some mental patient. (I’m all happy and better these days thankfully)

I hate the fact that my mother does this, I don’t know what to do about it, it angers me so much that I just feel like punching a wall.

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Comments ( 10 )
  • RoseIsabella

    Your mother sounds like the very reason you were depressed, suicidal, self harmed and had a psychotic break. My mom has kinda fucked me up in her own bitchy, controlling and gaslighting way.

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    • How is she the problem? Cause she cares about her daughter? Yeah she's a little obsessive about it but still

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      • RoseIsabella

        Her mother sounds more ignorant, judgmental and demanding than caring in my less than humble opinion.

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  • IrishPotato

    Your mother sounds fucking insane.

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  • DanielBlizzard

    fuck this bitch
    be a man and just put ur cock in her and tell her that now she is ashamed or enjoying humping on ur dick
    make her cum and moan for u
    teach her that what is her place

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  • She cares about you cause you were fucking yourself up and she wants to make sure you aren't anymore

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    • lordofopinions

      But her mother is going WAY overboard.

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      • Yea but its cause she cares a lot and thats why

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  • Ellenna

    Can you get away from her? She sounds horrible

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  • cipro

    Ur mother is an abusive asshole. Punch her in the mouth.

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