My life is great and i hate it??

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Im a young gay guy right. And my life is pretty good i live with enough money to get by, i am in a very open, friendly and good environment all the time. i have no reason to be unhappy with life at all but i really am.

Im not sure why but i feel depressed but not super depressed. i dont have any typical symptoms that i read online i just feel like crying a lot and sometime thing about suicide (i wouldnt go through with it im too much of a pussy).

Also and slightly more concerningly i want bad things to happen to me. I cant work out if it is just to give me a reason to be depressed or for some excitement but the idea of being in a car crash, or being attacked in the street or getting cancer or something would make me feel happier.

and sure as i was flying through a car window or getting told i had cancer i would be a total mess at least i could be depressed without feeling like i have to hide it. Like now even if i feel like shit if someone asks if im ok i ALWAYS just say "Yeah just a bit tired" so they leave me alone.

im an attention seeker that hates attention
a depressed youth without depression
and an all around ass hole it would seem.

i would love to know if these symptoms are linked to any listed problems cause i hate having them so much.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ????

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  • RazzSoH
    9 years ago | pl

    Dear concerned,

    I can understand, you seem to have it good, but as far as depression, I believe you have that confused and what you really have is boredom. With that being said I must say add a little spice to your life, try something new rather a new hobby, or a new form of intimacy. you may follow a schedule, but I'd say just go with the flow. Add a little more color to your life.

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  • hairyfairy
    9 years ago | pl

    Care to swap your life with mine? you`d have something to moan about then!

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  • a215
    12 years ago | pl

    go travel. you might have all the pieces but you might just be bored. try something new. do something each week you wouldnt normally do.

    i feel the same way too. i have it all together and things are running smooth, but i feel like a big fuck up at the same time.

    but it just sounds like your bored. drive somewhere really far. thats the best thing.

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  • CountryRoads
    12 years ago | pl

    Drama queen.
    Focus on what you love about your life, and stop wanting to stir up trouble.

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  • MercedesBenz
    12 years ago | pl

    I think you just need to find something you are truly passionate about. You need some type of hobby.

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  • doctormuraki20
    13 years ago | pl

    It might just be a chemical imbalance, but go to counseling and be more active and see if that helps before jumping to drugs to balance yourself out.

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  • GaryT
    13 years ago | pl

    Go for counselling, or join some social organizations. Maybe doing some charity stuffs, then you may start to appreciate yourself.

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  • Snuggie123
    13 years ago | pl

    1stofall gay people are awesome, and 2nd ur totaly normal dude(:

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  • Comm0nSense
    13 years ago | pl

    you need some
    pussy..

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  • ThinkPad
    13 years ago | pl

    quit being a drama queen and go play a sport

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