My friends are going to be the death of me.

Since last year, I've been getting less and less time to spend with my closest friends. They all have different classes than me, go to different schools, and some don't even live in the same state anymore. I still keep contact with them, but crave social interaction in real life.

This is where my pseudo-friends come in. My pseudo-friends are a group of people I befriended due to common interests, but in actuality I don't really like any of them, and hang out with them because it's convenient.

All of the friendships began genuinely, but recently I've begun to resent each and every one of them for various reasons.

I feel obligated to keep up appearances with them, and that obligation has caused me to become reclusive and hateful. I avoid them, disengage every time they talk to me, and have actually gone out of my way to not eat with them.

When I hang out with them, I simultaneously feel trapped and like a complete bitch. I hate that I think so horribly of them. At the same time, I hate how impossible it is to get away from them without ending up friendless.

Keeping quiet about all of this is causing me to be extremely stressed. I cannot sleep, my stomach hurts, and I have been getting anxiety-triggered migraines. I've been inching dangerously close to depression-like symptoms,and yesterday I broke down crying in the car.

These people are killing me, and I don't know what to do.