My bother has blackmailed me
My parents are religious and work-aholics. They work very hard to put food on our table. My brother who is 1 year older than me found out I am gay and to keep the peace between our family, I allow him to verbally and physically abuse me. I dont want the family to fall apart but I also dont want black eyes and bruises anymore. I have been pidgonholed into this feeling that everything is always my fault, that my existsnce will be the downfall of our “family”. I want to end this cycle, but I am afraid of what happens after the cycle is broken.