Love someone you can't have

I'm female and definitely am straight, but when I was in my third year of middleschool to my senior year of highschool I used to have this massive crush on one of my closest girl friend. She was really kind, smart (vale victorian), a bit selfish, and flamboyant. She was an inch smaller than me and she loved to sit on my lap and bite me, which I found extremely cute! She had asperger syndrome, which is when you display an intense interest in one or more things and have problems with interacting with other people. She loved to hug me and compare my scent with other people's saying that mine was the most interesting. We talked about a lot of things together, that is until she moved to Washington during my sophomore year of highschool. We still keep in touch, but I hate that she's gone and that I can't have her.