Lost & disconnected

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If you didn't have the willpower or want to change...you wouldn't be writing this asking for help. I'm going to be blunt here. You need to suck it up. Life sucks...if you let it. You know your problems and you are the only one who can fix it. If you want to be happy then shut down the pity party and make shit happen!!! I know it sounds harsh but it's true...no one can save you but you. I wish you luck.

And u don't enjoy these amazing skills?? I wish I could do a few of those things! You just need to GET OUT! U need to make new buddies, and learn to love what u have, and tackle your depression and delete your "phobia" from your lifestyle, being scared to talk to people will get u nowhere but loneliness, and NOoNE, Not a single person in this world, likes alot about theirselevs. I have very low self esteem, and I hate how I look, talk, sound, and yet I still push on and don't give a fuck about others opinions, (at least I try not to)
So stop feeling sorry for yourself! The working out should help your self esteem though, it builds muscle as well as character(: let me sing you. A song I absolutely love (even though this is over text and u can't hear the rythym). " I met a man of 2 ft tall, he was quite ambitious, in a world that is so vicious to us all, I'll say hi, as he replied, he sed listen to these words that I have lived by my whole life! You're only as TALL, as ur heart will LET you be, and you're only as small, as the world will make u seem, and when the going gets rough, and you feel like u may fall, just look on the brightside, you're roughly six feet tall! " good luck !!(:

Have you ever heard of the second Newton's law?? Every action bears a reaction of the same force with the opposite direction.
You just told us what you are not good at or what you don't have. What are you good at? what do you have?
Just take a better look in you skills, I'm sure you'll find something worth working on...

i had and kinda still do have this exact same problem but you know what helped me feel alive? crime and im not saying go out and kill someone or beat them to a bloody pulp but go brreak into some houses or burn down a small office or a building ( i done it when no one was in it) i garantee you it will help.

Travelling is a good idea. I'm really shy too, and I find that being far from home helps me express myself around people and not worry about what they think, since I'll probably never see them again.

Travel a bit. Get out, experience some of the world before it becomes too disgustingly expensive to travel. There has to be something other than the internet that you like to do. Try to do something outdoors though; preferably alone (but safe), like hiking. Feeling a connection with a bit of the natural world (the outdoors) can be so uplifting and inspiring. People who lead balanced, happy, fulfilling lives, usually do a lot of out-doorsy activities on a very regular basis.

Many, many people your age are in the same boat as you (in North America especially). The media influence throughout your childhood, and the narcissistic parenting of the children of the Baby Boomers, has totally fucked up your generation. You are not alone.

Change your routines times u wake up... Go out meet people b friendly... I feel like I don't fit in with society no car or house either but I still have gf and friends.... But only because I like to meet people.... I can b shy too but push myself to be outgoing... You can do it!!!

You will win.

Count on it!