Long lost love
Is it normal to still hold a flame of sorts for someone you broke up with more than 15 years ago?
When I was in my early 20's I met someone while I was married and we carried on a love affair for about 10 years.
During that time she would date loosely different guys seeing that I was married she had that freedom but we still
loved each other. There were times when she was out with some other guy and I would come over just out of the
blue and her sister would call her, she would immediately leave her date to be with me. After about 4 years into
our affair I felt bad and tried to end it, but she still called me everyday for a solid year just to hear my voice on the
answering machine and hope that i may accept her call. Finally I gave in and we continued right were we left off,
still as deeply in love as before. Finally after about 9 years I broke her heart for the last time and our hearts parted ways
although we would sometimes see each other the flame was gone. Finally after year 10 we just faded apart and went
out separate ways. That was about 15 years ago and truth be told I still lover her and probably always will, I often wonder
what it would have been like if I had that guts I should have had then to leave my 'then' wife to be with her. After we
parted ways I finally divorced my wife and found someone else, but I still wonder, dream and think of her.
Is it normal?