You must be terrible to be around, no wonder you are totally alone and have no friends and have been "hurt" so much. I wouldnt want to be around for more then 5 mins. I would call you a troll but I really think you are exactly like what you describe on here in real life.
Enjoy living your lonely, hate filled existence. I hope you live a long, long, LONG life. Its the worst possible thing that could happen to you.
I'm not always terrible to be around. I do have a few friends who are as misanthropic as myself. We have fun together.
And I definitely don't plan on living a long life. 35 is my cutoff. So your wish will not be granted ;-) My wish for you would be to get hit by a bus, but I'm not going to actually wish for that. Because you will be hurt over and over again by people. You will be disappointed. You will be let down. And that's good enough for me.
You mean you and your misanthropic clique of humans who hate humans but clearly not each other or yourselves have "FUN"?
You know what the definition for "fun" is? Enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure. You know why people seek fun? To feel happy and joyful, whether it be fleeting or long-lasting.
In other words, you hate people, especially happy people, but have friends you don't hate who also hate people (except you and each other) who you have fun with which makes you happy which makes you a happy person, which you hate.
First off, we definitely hate ourselves. We tolerate each other. And sometimes when I'm not in an uncontrollable rage (I admit, there are times I can and do enjoy things...on the rare occasion) Maybe I am a bit jealous that there are people who can be happy all the time, but at the same time, I do hate them. I hate that I CAN'T be happy all the time. I take medication for bipolar disorder and social anxiety, but that doesn't fucking work.
So my bitterness, I guess, is down to the fact I'm apparently not allowed to be happy but on the rare occasion. And the times I AM happy, I get let down. For real, I'm not always a bitter human being, but I find being happy for me always leads to being disappointed.
You're bitter because some people are more consistently happy than you; they don't necessarily encounter the endless disappointment you do and many people don't have to contend with a mental illness like Bipolar disorder when trying to enjoy their lives.
But that doesn't really excuse your nastiness towards people. Because some people have what you don't have, doesn't justify such vehement berating. It doesn't justify you calling people deluded or claiming they are setting themselves up to be crushed when you yourself admit it doesn't always follow that route for everyone. It doesn't justify you wishing death upon people who aren't as miserable as you. It doesn't justify you blaming 'happy people' for your own emotional struggles. That is the kind of attitude that essentially dooms you to continue being mostly unhappy - a self fulfilling prophecy.
That's fine, your heart is 'closed' as you say, you couldn't possibly care... Except that such bitterness is possibly the grandest display that you do care. That you care a great deal. If your heart was truly locked away safely then this hatred wouldn't manifest in response to such trivial comments. You aren't as thick skinned or tough as you might think.
Do you think you'd be happy if everybody else was always miserable?
Maybe not "truly" happy, but at least everyone else would understand that way.
And I'm not blaming everything on my bipolar disorder. I admit, most of the time I am a truly bitter person. I am bitter that people can move on. I am bitter that people can take the bad in their life and get over it. Of course it's my own fault that I can't, but I can't help but hate happy and positive people. I can't help wanting them to be as spiteful as me. I can't help but want people to lose as much as I've lost. My attitude has not always been this way: if you knew me as a child/early teenager, I was a COMPLETELY different person. I didn't develop the bitterness overnight...just, for me, I lost everything when I was a happy person. If there is a "god", he fucked me over. So I'm sorry, but I can't help but be bitter towards happy people, and no amount of therapy and medication is changing this for me, even as hard as I've tried to get over it. I've just learned to embrace the hatred. It might not be healthy, but it's the only way I know now to deal. Understand please, I'm not trying to go on some sob story, I'm just trying to explain where I'm coming from.
I kinda understand alot of where you are coming from, and I am not going to start into some stupid pep talk about how you should put those feelings behind and try to be "happy". But wishing misery on others wouldnt make your life better at all, in fact it would probably make it worse, even if nothing bad even happened to you. And there isnt a "god" its all make believe, but if by some miracle there is one he, she, or it is nothing like what religion portrays them as. I dont condone suicide either, but if life is that upsetting for you its something you can at least consider, I dont think you should do it mind you, but its the ultimate control we have in a world and life without any other controls.
If you tell me you are someone living in poverty in Africa, fighting crocodiles for clean drinking water, while another war lord takes over your village slaughtering your brother and sister in the process then I may have some sympathy for you. But you arent, you are probably just a regular kid with very few real, actual problems.
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You must be terrible to be around, no wonder you are totally alone and have no friends and have been "hurt" so much. I wouldnt want to be around for more then 5 mins. I would call you a troll but I really think you are exactly like what you describe on here in real life.
Enjoy living your lonely, hate filled existence. I hope you live a long, long, LONG life. Its the worst possible thing that could happen to you.
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I'm not always terrible to be around. I do have a few friends who are as misanthropic as myself. We have fun together.
And I definitely don't plan on living a long life. 35 is my cutoff. So your wish will not be granted ;-) My wish for you would be to get hit by a bus, but I'm not going to actually wish for that. Because you will be hurt over and over again by people. You will be disappointed. You will be let down. And that's good enough for me.
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You have "FUN" together?
You mean you and your misanthropic clique of humans who hate humans but clearly not each other or yourselves have "FUN"?
You know what the definition for "fun" is? Enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure. You know why people seek fun? To feel happy and joyful, whether it be fleeting or long-lasting.
In other words, you hate people, especially happy people, but have friends you don't hate who also hate people (except you and each other) who you have fun with which makes you happy which makes you a happy person, which you hate.
What a joke :D
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First off, we definitely hate ourselves. We tolerate each other. And sometimes when I'm not in an uncontrollable rage (I admit, there are times I can and do enjoy things...on the rare occasion) Maybe I am a bit jealous that there are people who can be happy all the time, but at the same time, I do hate them. I hate that I CAN'T be happy all the time. I take medication for bipolar disorder and social anxiety, but that doesn't fucking work.
So my bitterness, I guess, is down to the fact I'm apparently not allowed to be happy but on the rare occasion. And the times I AM happy, I get let down. For real, I'm not always a bitter human being, but I find being happy for me always leads to being disappointed.
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That explains a lot.
You're bitter because some people are more consistently happy than you; they don't necessarily encounter the endless disappointment you do and many people don't have to contend with a mental illness like Bipolar disorder when trying to enjoy their lives.
But that doesn't really excuse your nastiness towards people. Because some people have what you don't have, doesn't justify such vehement berating. It doesn't justify you calling people deluded or claiming they are setting themselves up to be crushed when you yourself admit it doesn't always follow that route for everyone. It doesn't justify you wishing death upon people who aren't as miserable as you. It doesn't justify you blaming 'happy people' for your own emotional struggles. That is the kind of attitude that essentially dooms you to continue being mostly unhappy - a self fulfilling prophecy.
That's fine, your heart is 'closed' as you say, you couldn't possibly care... Except that such bitterness is possibly the grandest display that you do care. That you care a great deal. If your heart was truly locked away safely then this hatred wouldn't manifest in response to such trivial comments. You aren't as thick skinned or tough as you might think.
Do you think you'd be happy if everybody else was always miserable?
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Maybe not "truly" happy, but at least everyone else would understand that way.
And I'm not blaming everything on my bipolar disorder. I admit, most of the time I am a truly bitter person. I am bitter that people can move on. I am bitter that people can take the bad in their life and get over it. Of course it's my own fault that I can't, but I can't help but hate happy and positive people. I can't help wanting them to be as spiteful as me. I can't help but want people to lose as much as I've lost. My attitude has not always been this way: if you knew me as a child/early teenager, I was a COMPLETELY different person. I didn't develop the bitterness overnight...just, for me, I lost everything when I was a happy person. If there is a "god", he fucked me over. So I'm sorry, but I can't help but be bitter towards happy people, and no amount of therapy and medication is changing this for me, even as hard as I've tried to get over it. I've just learned to embrace the hatred. It might not be healthy, but it's the only way I know now to deal. Understand please, I'm not trying to go on some sob story, I'm just trying to explain where I'm coming from.
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I kinda understand alot of where you are coming from, and I am not going to start into some stupid pep talk about how you should put those feelings behind and try to be "happy". But wishing misery on others wouldnt make your life better at all, in fact it would probably make it worse, even if nothing bad even happened to you. And there isnt a "god" its all make believe, but if by some miracle there is one he, she, or it is nothing like what religion portrays them as. I dont condone suicide either, but if life is that upsetting for you its something you can at least consider, I dont think you should do it mind you, but its the ultimate control we have in a world and life without any other controls.
If you tell me you are someone living in poverty in Africa, fighting crocodiles for clean drinking water, while another war lord takes over your village slaughtering your brother and sister in the process then I may have some sympathy for you. But you arent, you are probably just a regular kid with very few real, actual problems.