Leaving modern society
I yearn to live a life away from all that I see around me. Life isn't as whole in my eyes as it used to be from what the past has shown. My heart desires the wilderness of Alaska, Montana, etc. The need to provide and sustain off of what I create has been a dream of mine since the age of 10. It was at this age I began teaching myself techniques and skills of foraging on my own throughout the woods of NH where we lived. Most ideas came to me through instict or my own resourcefulness, the rest was brought to me through the library. Wigwams, lean tos, tepees, fire, medecine, clothing, food, tools, fishing gear and more, I went through and continue to go through with the help of an old hand ax. With the creation of my 1st set of snow shoes at the age of 12, I began camping in the winter by myself. My parents had no knowledge of these endevours, they assumed I had many sleep overs (or I just snuck out the window). They saw my creativity but never joined with me. No one I knew growing up pursued this same interest. I have kept up with my skills (classes) and done more within this dream, but never anything extreme. For 10 years I have been living a life I don't want. 3 years until I come close to having any real hope of achieving this, recently I have been obsessing about it more and more. It is due to my parents that I have not dropped everything (my education) and bought that ticket away from all this. Am I alone? Are there others who feel this way? I would like to find at least one person, maybe create a group of people who want to live life this way. My searching online has lead to nothing so far. It is with resignation that those who may have had/have these thoughts are already enjoying them. It is with a larger wish that I find a man who feels this way as well. I'm not saying I haven't enjoyed the relationships I've had, it's just none shared this interest with me. I have heard about men who want to enjoy experiences like this, not a girl. Why haven't I met a guy like this yet? Maybe I'm in the wrong area?