It is normal that i am failing to fulfill my aim like this?

thanks guys.

I know what you mean about loosing your beleif in god. I'm feeling the same way lately. God will appearantly "test you." I have no idea why. I'm at my limit as well. I say remove youself from the situaion. For once in your life, take the easy way out. Move out of the house, and do what's best for YOU, and only you.

It sounds like you're going through a lot at the moment. I get that this must be really stressful for you; on top of everything else, feeling like you're losing your dream must be heartbreaking. However:

- Do not be afraid to retake exams, especially if you're having problems in other areas. I've done a lot of this, and it can be difficult to do but in the end it gets you where you want to be, and any university worth its reputation will understand. If you're worried you can even call and talk to them about it.

- Find someone to talk to. This could be a friend, or a counsellor, or a stranger on the internet - but don't try to cope with this alone. If you are seriously thinking about suicide then I would recommend talking to a counsellor, and maybe finding a local support group for young carers.

- Remember that whatever your parents feel towards each other, they still care about you. If you can face it, then tell them how you're feeling, how their actions affect you, what you're worried about and how much stress you're under. At the very least, tell your family that you love them and you need their support at the moment.

- Know that it is perfectly possible to live a happy life without belief in God. However, if this is important to you, then you could try seeking support from your local church. It is very possible that your faith will return as you work through your problems.

You came here to ask for help, and that's good. But please do not be afraid to ask for help in the real world as well - believe me, I know how difficult that can be, but it really is the best thing you can do. Know that whatever you're going through, you are not the only person ever to feel this way; people do recover from worse setbacks than this; and you are not a bad person or a failure.

Sorry for the essay. Feel free to message me if you want to chat. Good luck :)

Hey man I know how you feel. It's like no matter how hard you try to do the right thing it's never good enough you push the envelope you do all that you can to try to make a difference in your life henceforth it just doesn't work out. Oh please don't talk to me about family family sucks the come around and say the wrong things to you At the wrong time at the end of the day all you got is you fuck everybody else family is nothing the same people that speak positive words to you do good thing for You bless you will be the same ones that will turn around and say mean hurtful negative things to you in the same breath. I haven't lost belief in God but I don't believe he is going to bless me I look at my life and I wonder why I'm going through what I'm going through --whose mistakes am my paying the price for what did i do to deserve this that's why I hate people and I hate life because it is not fair that I'm going through this --I've done a lot of good in this world --I have taken full responsibility for the wrong things I have done. I don't trust people I have been a blessing to so many people I have sown so many positive seeds into peoples lives yet they come into my life they get comfortable careless then windup taking my heart and my kindest for Granted I have lost faith in myself I have lost faith in God and the only way I believe anything is going to happen is if I destroy the lives of everyone around me. My mind is like crap My brain feels like crushed pineapples my heart is as blackest night I just wish there was something I could do to change my life I'm doing the best I can but obviously it's not good enough I don't know what you doing tomorrow maybe you and I can join forces and take the world By force.You seem to be a good person like you seem like a decent guy just like me so why all this crap Why are we going through all these problems why do good people have to suffer it's just not fair It's up to you and I to make a difference and fight for the good people and fight for the guys nice guys this time we start winning it's Up to usI to make sure that the good people nice guys always win. It is now our time it is now our turn