Is what my father did normal or acceptable?

Hi everybody. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I've been having some psychological problems lately. I get really depressed and angry at times and i think i am beginning to understand why. Besides my dad being very abusive when i was growing up, there is something that bothers me even more.
When i was about 9 or 10 my dad use to come into my room in nothing but his underwear and start to spoon me. I naturally become very uncomfortable and would move forward so we were not touching, but he would pull me back and say "no don't go, stay, you're my boy". He would also tell me i was the only one in the family who loved him, and one time he kissed me on the side of my lips while trying to spoon me. I think i remember telling him that i didn't like when he touched me and he got kind of mad and left. This honestly disgusts me. Do you think it is worth confronting him? or am i being homophobic and overreacting to an awkwardly close father son relationship??.. gross. all i know is i would never put my son in a situation like that. Thanks for listening.