Is this okay?
Okay to start here is a bit about me. I am 23 yrs old I am gay and also bi-polar. I have anxiety and depression problems as well. I am in a relationship and have been for just about 2 years. Over this time I have cheated on him 7 times. And everything I feel 100%% guilty and hate what I have done. I tell him about it when it happens, and sob lots of TRUE sorrows. My question is, I know that I hurt and am hurting him when I cheat but when it happens its completely impulsive and not truly me. I try to explain this to him. After the fact he calls me names such as "sl*t" "trash" n*****" (he's white) "a**hole" you dont love me" tells me I have "n***** lips", that I am "ugly" and that "I have nappy hair". Is this okay behavior for him toward me because I did cheat on him? Im lost and confused. But the names dont help.