Is this ok?

I went into my cousins room today to look around. That is invasion of privacy and I shouldn't have done it. I went straight over to her nightstand and I opened the drawer and founder her vibrator. For some odd reason the thought of her having a vibrator is oddly arousing. I have three other cousins that I think are beautiful. I wish that sometimes I wasn't related to them that way I could date them and have sex with them. Althought I have thought about them and the thought of us being related is also arousing. Anyways, back to the cousin whose room I went through. She is beautiful, hot, and she has these breasts (I am calling them that that way I won't affend women) that are huge (36DD) and all natural. She is by all means not fat. When I found the vibrator, I masturbated to thought of her using it. I know for a fact that she has not and will never think about me in a sexual way. She is smart, funny, sexy, and great to be around. Is there anyway that I could break the ice and tell her how I feel in a subtle way without making things weird? Are my thoughts natural or am I bad person? Tell me the truth.