I think some people think they have it when they don't.
Growing up (and only when I'm alone today) I always had this sense of anxiety with me at all times. I barely talked at school b/c I was afraid I would sound weird or I'd mess up on my words and embarrass myself. I always thought people would be staring at me when I would write or eat. I can't eat unless I make sure no one is looking. When I write I think people know what I'm writing and I get embarrassed/anxious.
Talking on the phone is still hard for me when it's not my mom or boyfriend. Once my dad made me leave a message after I called someone and they didn't pick up and I freaked out and cried, almost had a panic attack but I did it.lol.
I always feel on edge because I think everyone is staring at me and watching my every move though I know they aren't.
I remember being nervous hanging out with my friends too. I'd force myself to go but I'd end up not talking at all b/c I was so anxious.
I think what people don't realize is how debilitating the anxiety is. It's not normal nervousness IMO.
I've done some stupid things because of my anxiety. When I lived with my dad and his GF (whom I hated and tried too avoid at all costs) I would stay in my room. I couldn't even go to the bathroom and it was right next to my bedroom. She would always be on the couch watching tv so I knew she'd see me. I would stand by the door holding the knob trying to turn it without making a sound, then I'd open the door slowly but it always creaked so I'd freak out and couldn't do it. I stopped eating too b/c I refused to eat her food and I couldn't leave my room b/c of my anxiety.
A few times I would sneak out the window to go to the store down the street for food and crawl back through the window to get back into my room. XD
I didn't do it very often and I'd be afraid that one of the neighbors would come out and see me so it took a while. It made my depression worse and then I started not being able to sleep. Started getting paranoid thinking someone was watching me at night. Then I started hearing voices all of the time. I started having panic attacks whenever I got really anxious which was most of the time.
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I think some people think they have it when they don't.
Growing up (and only when I'm alone today) I always had this sense of anxiety with me at all times. I barely talked at school b/c I was afraid I would sound weird or I'd mess up on my words and embarrass myself. I always thought people would be staring at me when I would write or eat. I can't eat unless I make sure no one is looking. When I write I think people know what I'm writing and I get embarrassed/anxious.
Talking on the phone is still hard for me when it's not my mom or boyfriend. Once my dad made me leave a message after I called someone and they didn't pick up and I freaked out and cried, almost had a panic attack but I did it.lol.
I always feel on edge because I think everyone is staring at me and watching my every move though I know they aren't.
I remember being nervous hanging out with my friends too. I'd force myself to go but I'd end up not talking at all b/c I was so anxious.
I think what people don't realize is how debilitating the anxiety is. It's not normal nervousness IMO.
I've done some stupid things because of my anxiety. When I lived with my dad and his GF (whom I hated and tried too avoid at all costs) I would stay in my room. I couldn't even go to the bathroom and it was right next to my bedroom. She would always be on the couch watching tv so I knew she'd see me. I would stand by the door holding the knob trying to turn it without making a sound, then I'd open the door slowly but it always creaked so I'd freak out and couldn't do it. I stopped eating too b/c I refused to eat her food and I couldn't leave my room b/c of my anxiety.
A few times I would sneak out the window to go to the store down the street for food and crawl back through the window to get back into my room. XD
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You're lucky you could go to the store. I have to ask my dad to buy me every little thing and it takes me days to build up courage to ask.
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I guess I can see that as a positive..lol.
I didn't do it very often and I'd be afraid that one of the neighbors would come out and see me so it took a while. It made my depression worse and then I started not being able to sleep. Started getting paranoid thinking someone was watching me at night. Then I started hearing voices all of the time. I started having panic attacks whenever I got really anxious which was most of the time.