He's probably afraid. Of what? Only he knows. Think about it; if he has more children he can make time for, then he can definitely make time for you if he tried, but he's clearly afraid of something or trying to avoid the flying rainbow elephant in the room (i.e. talking about why he gave you up for adoption, etc). Maybe he feels guilty? Maybe he has emotions he can't comprehend yet?
Though adoption is much better than abortion, it still weighs on the parents heavily or even more so; because in abortion, your child is gone forever; but in adoption, your child is still there, but emotionally gone forever because that's no longer your child and you can't just simply get them back by showing up randomly in their life.
TL;DR: Try to empathize with your bio family, especially your parents; they made sure you were safe from a harsh upbringing of dealing with parents who don't love each other, the emotional instability, and becoming a witness to the inevitable break up.
If you really want to reconnect, try reaching out through text, then let it gradually progress to phone calls, and then to meeting in person, etc. Hold off on the dramatic, "WHY YOU ABANDON ME WITH THIS NICE FAMILY!?!?!!!!?" You're an adult now, and you'll get those answers as you learn more about your parents and their history; because being as angry as you are will only push them away, and make them even more scared to approach you.
Is my father making excuses?
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He's probably afraid. Of what? Only he knows. Think about it; if he has more children he can make time for, then he can definitely make time for you if he tried, but he's clearly afraid of something or trying to avoid the flying rainbow elephant in the room (i.e. talking about why he gave you up for adoption, etc). Maybe he feels guilty? Maybe he has emotions he can't comprehend yet?
Though adoption is much better than abortion, it still weighs on the parents heavily or even more so; because in abortion, your child is gone forever; but in adoption, your child is still there, but emotionally gone forever because that's no longer your child and you can't just simply get them back by showing up randomly in their life.
TL;DR: Try to empathize with your bio family, especially your parents; they made sure you were safe from a harsh upbringing of dealing with parents who don't love each other, the emotional instability, and becoming a witness to the inevitable break up.
If you really want to reconnect, try reaching out through text, then let it gradually progress to phone calls, and then to meeting in person, etc. Hold off on the dramatic, "WHY YOU ABANDON ME WITH THIS NICE FAMILY!?!?!!!!?" You're an adult now, and you'll get those answers as you learn more about your parents and their history; because being as angry as you are will only push them away, and make them even more scared to approach you.