Is maiesophilia or the sexual attraction to pregnant women normal
First I would like to start out by saying that this online community simply through its existence has helped me in ways I cannot even begin to express. Let me talk a little bit more about myself...
I am a male in my early twenties who has had maiesophilia since I went through puberty. Because of this I have always been incredibly gaurded and ashamed by my sexuality to the point most people simply assume that I am a homosexual still in the closet (not that there is anything wrong with homosexuality}. Although I am still attracted to women in general it normally comes accross most of the time as if Im only pretending to be straight and in general insincere.
I function socially as a self proclaimed eunuch or asexual individual and although I have a job, friends etc... I always feel as if there is a gaping hole in my life and this incredible sense of loneliness. I have never shared this fetish with anyone... ever... I have had a longstanding issue with reuccuring chronic depression and for the past three years alcoholism and binge drinking. The feeling of shame I feel from such a sexual deviancy has if anything inhibited both my potential for growth as a human being and ultimately my finding of happiness in general. More particularly my fetish is with attractive pregnant women typically in the first and second trimesters but not so much in particular childbirth which I assume would be a more common fetish. please answer honestly as I not only want but need to know the truth of whether or not maiesophilia is normal and or if I should continue to feel ashamed of it and hide it.