Is it normal unwelcome thoughts?

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I'll just be sitting there, doing whatever, and think, completely without prompting, "I wish I were dead."
Lately I've been a bit depressed but this has been happening completely at random and with NO input. At the ends of sentences inside my head, in silences, and it's scaring me a lot. It doesn't really (edit: always) feel like it's me thinking it, either. I don't like the idea of being suicidal or anything like it. It's getting to the point that I just quietly say, "No I don't. Stop that." to myself either internally in public or out loud if I'm, say, in my room alone.
Oh my god, typing this out makes me feel like I'm totally crazy.
Please tell me, What should I do?
Is this normal? Will it pass?

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Based on 70 votes (45 yes)
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  • emilydoll
    11 years ago

    Just know that it's just involuntary and it's nothing to be afraid of and you know in your heart that you don't really agree so just say nothing, I know it bothers you but don't argue with it. I know, you know and your heart knows that those involuntary thoughts aren't coming from your heart, you don't need to try and kill it off. Just try to ignore it and don't beat yourself up if it takes you a while, ignoring certain thoughts takes practice, don't even tell it no. Just say nothing. Relax. It's NORMAL. It's kind of like how our dreams can be icky and we can't always control every detail, it's the brain, it's annoying sometimes but for the very most part, it is yours, and you are not to blame. Do not be afraid. :) <3

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    • Shackleford96
      11 years ago

      Great advice, listen to Emilydoll OP!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      That helps a lot. And is a really comforting way to put it! Thank you so much. ;u; <3

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  • Letired
    11 years ago

    Look up Intrusive Thoughts

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  • MacG
    11 years ago

    See a mental health professional.

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  • KBSH
    11 years ago

    I am clinically depressed myself. If you want to talk, talk to anyone (you can also PM me) or a psychologist and sort out these thoughts. Such thoughts can be cured. Don't worry!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      Thank you!
      I'm slightly worried that if I tell a psychologist about something like this that they might have me sectioned, though, haha.
      I'm not really sure how they quantify that sort of thing.

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      • KBSH
        11 years ago

        Do you know what? Even I thought so in the start. I thought I will be put in some extensive care or suicide watch and I will be shackles for the rest of my life.

        But, it was really nothing. To be completely honest, my family weren't a 100 percent supportive. But, it was better after that because I got a moments peace from those thoughts.

        Don't overthink it! Just inform your parents and go!

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  • 00000
    11 years ago

    yeah i get that too, but with a lot of other things too.
    to deal with it, ive just thought of it as a type of idea/thought sorting process where i could either agree, or disagree to my thoughts

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  • VioletTrees
    11 years ago

    I have it to. If you want to talk, you can email me at [email protected]

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      Thank you very much. I might. :)

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  • disthing
    11 years ago

    I get this.

    "I wish I was dead"
    "I wish you were dead"
    "I wonder what would happen if I just hit him right in the face right now"
    "I want to fuck her/that"
    "I want to eat that/her"
    "Fuck you"
    "I hate you"
    "I love you"

    Also racist and taboo words, and sexual visuals that don't interest me.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I can't say it's normal. Life is too grand for me to depart from it willingly.

    Also- what if the best thing is just around the corner? That's like putting down a book when you discover the protagonist is held up in some the lair of some James Bond villain.

    Flip the page, don't close the book!! He gets out of it!!

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    • NocturnePonyFan
      11 years ago

      But what if, around the corner, it only gets worse? I'd rather get out before it gets worse than hope for it to get better.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      I do like your analogy.
      I've been sort of trying to tell myself stuff like that when it happens. :)

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  • emilydoll
    11 years ago

    It's annoying isn't it?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      Very. It started after a series of pretty bad panic attacks so I was pretty scared haha.

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  • emilydoll
    11 years ago

    You're normal. :]

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    Yep happens.

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  • Short4Words
    11 years ago

    I get that too, you're not crazy. If you want to talk more just pm me.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      I might..

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  • Whyyouask
    11 years ago

    It's funny because that just happened to me a few moments ago. I was watching a show on OCD and suddenly I looked around my room and thought "I wish I had OCD" instantly afterwards I said out loud "no you don't. Don't say stuff like that its a horrible thing to wish" but I guess what I'm trying to say is I think it's normal just because I think we all think of things we don't mean. I do it all the time and its just how the brain works. I believe it's just an in the moment kind of thing which is why it's not healthy to speak everything that goes through your mind right?

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  • nowhereboy
    11 years ago

    Most definitely OCD, an anxiety Disorder.

    A sub type known as "pure-o" to be precise.

    You are performing a compulsion by answering back to the unwanted thoughts, this gives them power.

    The trick is to let the thoughts arise but don't pay them any attention.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      I normally try to sort of take 'sounds like x disorder' sort of comments with a grain of salt (no offense, I'm sorry!) but seeing as this is the second OCD comment, and people have told me that I sound like I might have it before, and you sort of sound like you might know a little about it, I thought I might mention that I googled that and it seems to include other things that have been going on for years that people have mentioned and I've disregarded?
      Like that I don't shower or enter bathrooms for a few hours after people/I use them or keep my toothbrush in them because of floating waste particles, and I refuse to wear clothes that have been left out inside out because of dust?
      And a bunch of other things like that.
      I've always just chalked it up to my abundance of extremely bad (often hospitalized) skin and health problems though.

      Sorry for the super long reply, haha.

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      • nowhereboy
        11 years ago

        Don't worry, I'm not offended.

        I used to suffer from OCD hence why I know about it and I can relate to your initial post.

        I used to get horrid intrusive thoughts all day long and I started to feel like I was loosing my mind, I'd chat back to the thoughts sometimes, trying to fight them off but they always came back stronger, it almost felt like there was someone else in my head with me. It got really bad.

        The good new's is it can be cured and it's not actually dangerous or anything, just uncomfortable. I am free of these unwanted thoughts 90% of the time now.

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  • Fartyr
    11 years ago

    If youre smart enough to ask the question, then i think it's pretty normal and im sure youre okay . Kinda like how if you think you're crazy, you're probably not.

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  • noid
    11 years ago

    It sounds like OCD to me. If it gets more intense and troublesome seek help. OCD can be compulsive thoughts only, not always combined with compulsive behaviors.

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    • [Old Memory]
      11 years ago

      It could be depression, hormones, lack of sleep, normal, schizophrenia, BPD, ect, ect, ect.

      Jumping to OCD with the information given is stupid as what he describes sounds like everybody in the world at one point or another. Something out of nothing.

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      • noid
        11 years ago

        Go back and read what nowhere boy and the anonymous poster said above what I said. You can see I was not off target.

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        • [Old Memory]
          11 years ago

          He described a thousand disorders. It could be anything, anything at all.

          You both talk nonsense.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Everyone does this. It's nothing other than normal human instability, the most pleasant feeling on earth.

    This abstract thought process is the only thing that separates us from animals, so smile at the suicidal.

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    • lastcaress
      11 years ago

      Not pleasant if it's OCD.

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      • [Old Memory]
        11 years ago

        Key word "if". It could be OCD, I never said it wasn't. But to say that it clearly is OCD is a joke given the very limited info. Hell, I've even known schizophrenics that describe the same things the OP did. Half of that story fits ME for gods sake, and I'm certainly not an OCD type.

        A PROFESSIONAL COULDN'T EVEN MAKE A DIAGNOSIS BASED ON THAT STORY.

        I will side with common sense every time. nowhereboy means well, but is clearly a gimp as he thinks he could make a quicker diagnosis than a pro. What a bunch of deluded bullshit.

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        • nowhereboy
          11 years ago

          I shouldn't have said it was "clearly" OCD, I only said that because your Initial post angered me, "probably" would have been a better word.

          "clearly a gimp" ?

          I studied psychology and work helping people who suffer from mental Illness, schizophrenia, Bi-polar, BPD, OCD, depression etc.

          I suffered from OCD for two years, In that time my obsession revolved around the fear that I was developing a serious mental Illness, I obsessively searched online for hours every day, educating myself on every mental Illness and how they worked.

          Deluded bullshit? I think not.

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          • [Old Memory]
            11 years ago

            Very clearly a gimp.

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    • nowhereboy
      11 years ago

      Obviously you have never heard of OCD then? It certainly isn't the most pleasant feeling on earth.

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      • [Old Memory]
        11 years ago

        Hahaha, because depressive thoughts mean you've got to turn your car lights on and off three times over.

        "It certainly isn't the most pleasant feeling on earth"

        You have no idea what I'm even saying do you Mr retard.

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        • nowhereboy
          11 years ago

          Actually yes I do. And trust me, you're way out of your depth here.

          For a start OCD is not always about doing thing's repetitively, that's an incredibly Ignorant and un-educated stereotype.

          OCD is characterized by unwanted "intrusive thoughts", It's obvious to me the OP suffer's from these because talking back to them and telling himself "no I don't want to do that" is whats known as a compulsion, a symptom of OCD. Some compulsions can be outward expressions, hence "turning car lights on and off three times" or whatever.

          Another symptom of OCD is worrying your crazy and "re-assurance seeking", which is exactly what the OP is doing by posting this question.

          So yes, I was correct in saying it isn't a pleasant feeling. What ever you have in mind about "the most pleasant feeling on earth" is not relevant to what the OP is saying. He even states "it's scaring me a lot".

          Finally, If you have to resort to insults such as "Mr retard" In future, I won't bother wasting my time with you.

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          • [Old Memory]
            11 years ago

            "OCD is characterized by unwanted intrusive thoughts"

            "re-assurance seeking"

            You describe a thousand other disorders.

            But that doesn't come into play does it "Mr retard".

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            • nowhereboy
              11 years ago

              A thousand disorders? Ok fella, give me one...

              One disorder that is characterized by Intrusive thoughts, anxiety and re-assurance seeking in the way the OP described.

              I know EXACTLY what I'm talking about, I suffered from OCD, I had exactly the same symptoms as the OP, you don't even have an argument. I gave valid reasoning for everyone of my points which you have ignored.

              Where is your debate? Where is your Intelligence that you so proudly speak of? I'll give you one last chance to prove to me your not a complete idiot or our discussion is over

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            • lastcaress
              11 years ago

              nowhereboy was spot on in everything he said.

              You clearly have no idea what your talking about do you?

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