Is it normal to want torture?
I am a 20 year old girl, and I love pain, but not normal S&M. I always feel the need and urge to be tortured, and not just BDSM fetish. I go to underground clubs to meet random men and tell them to do anything they want to me, and I have gone as far as getting cut with knives and burned with hot pokers. I just love the thrill and pain and rush of being for real tortured. Is this normal? Does anybody else have this same like?