I. Am. Not. Emo.
Okay? Really, honestly, truthfully, I'm not. It's an intense urge, not a ' my life sucks so I think I'll make myself bleed because that's sure to help'. I can't help it, it scares me, I don't like it and I'm getting really hormonally cranky with everyone saying that I'm emo. Emo kids are the ones that cut themselves because, A; they want attention and feel like self harm is the perfect way to do that. These people are posers and aren't really emo, that's why they go crying to everyone else, SAYING that they're emo in order to get a reaction.In truth they're not, they only want to be center stage.
And B; the people who's lives are truly terrable, and in order to hide from it all they go numb. these people get frightened at the fact that they're starting not to feel and try to MAKE themselves feel. They keep cutting so that they can feel SOMETHING. at least that's how I understand it. If I'm wrong about the people who actually use it as an escape, I truly am sorry for thinking I knew what was going on.
But heres the thing;I don't fit into either if these groups.I know that my life is good, and I remind myself every day that It could be so much worse. You see? I don't NEED to cut, I just really, REALLY want to. There was no trigger or stresser that made me start it or anything. In fact I'm pretty sure that I was in one of those happy stages when The urge first showed up. You know, when it seems like nothing can go wrong and you're all smiles and giggles for like two weeks? ... I don't know if I'm making any sense. But let it be known, here and now;
I. AM. NOT. EMO.
Is it normal to want to make yourself bleed?
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I. Am. Not. Emo.
Okay? Really, honestly, truthfully, I'm not. It's an intense urge, not a ' my life sucks so I think I'll make myself bleed because that's sure to help'. I can't help it, it scares me, I don't like it and I'm getting really hormonally cranky with everyone saying that I'm emo. Emo kids are the ones that cut themselves because, A; they want attention and feel like self harm is the perfect way to do that. These people are posers and aren't really emo, that's why they go crying to everyone else, SAYING that they're emo in order to get a reaction.In truth they're not, they only want to be center stage.
And B; the people who's lives are truly terrable, and in order to hide from it all they go numb. these people get frightened at the fact that they're starting not to feel and try to MAKE themselves feel. They keep cutting so that they can feel SOMETHING. at least that's how I understand it. If I'm wrong about the people who actually use it as an escape, I truly am sorry for thinking I knew what was going on.
But heres the thing;I don't fit into either if these groups.I know that my life is good, and I remind myself every day that It could be so much worse. You see? I don't NEED to cut, I just really, REALLY want to. There was no trigger or stresser that made me start it or anything. In fact I'm pretty sure that I was in one of those happy stages when The urge first showed up. You know, when it seems like nothing can go wrong and you're all smiles and giggles for like two weeks? ... I don't know if I'm making any sense. But let it be known, here and now;
I. AM. NOT. EMO.
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And sorry for being unbeleivably cranky. honestly.