Is it normal to want to hurt those who are happy?
I have had this issue ever since I was a little girl, where I've had a disturbing urge to hurt those who are happy. When at school, I watch all these other kids laugh together or get treated nicely by the teachers and it makes me want to injure them. I can't stand being around couples because their overgrowing love sickens me, and I have an urge to degrade them when I see them. I still treat everyone nicely even if it means forcing a smile on my face. Not sure if this is important, but I left my best friend at my old school to go to a new school so that I may focus on my studies and get an accelerated teaching. I've also noticed, throughout my life I've been really obsessed with the idea of success. To an extreme point where I would use others to get to it. Thank you for your help.