Is it normal to want to hug your girlfriend and cry on her shoulder?
I'm about to be 28, and I still haven't graduated college. I work at a job close to minimum wage and I rent a room from my parents. I've got about one semester left before graduation if I make it through this semester, but I'm not sure if I would because I've been skipping classes and not doing my homework. Ever since I was 8, my mom has always been strict with me about schoolwork and not letting me play until I finished all my work. I've always been rebellious towards her for that. Now ten years after high school graduation, I think the reason I haven't graduated is because of some kind of latent unconscious psychological rebellion that I still have with school and homework. I have been depressed about this situation. The more classes I take, the more I feel I should just finish college. However, on the other hand, I just want to give up school and do whatever I want to do. I have become fat because I've resorted to eating to ease the tension and escape the stress.
But I'm so lonely and want to be with a girl. Since my mom has always been strict with me and never really showed me much outward emotional love, I really want to find a girlfriend that'll provide me with that love that my mom never gave. I always imagine having a girl that loves me and would let me just cry on her shoulders until I wash away the pain from the strict and unemotional upbringing by my mom. I would return the favor by letting her let her emotions out also, and we would love and care for each other in the most tender way and raise our kids in the most caring and loving way. I know I'm fat and no girls like that, but God willing, let me get in shape and find someone because my heart is pure.