Is it normal to want to have a lesbian experience?

I think theres an afterlife. Its just that we create it with our own minds. One night I was tripping balls on morning glory seeds and I had this vision that as we die, our brain creates another reality which is another lifetime and even the life we are living now was created by someone else's mind who died before us. In fact, I believe that everything is merely collective hallucination. However, where we go after we die is shaped by what we do with ourselves and our life