Is it normal to want to believe to be connected with a celebrity ?

Hi. Sorry for my bad english, I speak french. Please, respect and believe me.

I’m thirty-five years old.
I really want to feel deeply connected with a celebrity, to believe that .

Why ? Because I just want to feel loved and have a « very strong » mental.
To be happy with myself, to don’t need something else.

I know it’s sound crazy, mad, very strange for you, but it’s true.

Say that you understand me. Don’t insult me.