is it normal to want this and why

ah thank you, nice to have you to share my hopes, fears, desires etc around this consoling thoughts. Yes, for years it was there but I was scared to mention it and I still am if the truth be known: where I live there are no groups or clubs of like-minded oldies like me: to fulfill my need occassionally I self spank myself: quite effective too might I add: Much thanks for your trusting nature