I really know what you are talking about. Highschool re-union, in the rafters with an ak47; Knock, knock, "hi, remember me?", bang! Kind of stuff.
I was mentally ill for a while, I was in recovery, went back into school and had a nervous breakdown for 3 years because they just would not stop, you can't even defend yourself because your brain just freezes. I decided to leave when my memory was shot, I was confused to hell, getting fear from nowhere and rocking back and forth. Came out of school traumatized to hell.
I normalised after leaving but then it started hitting me again, from nowhere.
I now have severe mental health issues, way worse than before, that have ruined my life thusfar.
I was clever too, "I've never seen grades like this" clever. My mind is now mush.
The anger does not serve your cause though. It just causes you pain. It will also cause others pain if you kill anyone. I do, also, understand that anger makes you not give a damn.
I say this, revenge is not true justice, fixing your mind is. You don't deserve anger crushing your soul and blood on your hands - how is that just to you?
Is it normal to want revenge like this?
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I really know what you are talking about. Highschool re-union, in the rafters with an ak47; Knock, knock, "hi, remember me?", bang! Kind of stuff.
I was mentally ill for a while, I was in recovery, went back into school and had a nervous breakdown for 3 years because they just would not stop, you can't even defend yourself because your brain just freezes. I decided to leave when my memory was shot, I was confused to hell, getting fear from nowhere and rocking back and forth. Came out of school traumatized to hell.
I normalised after leaving but then it started hitting me again, from nowhere.
I now have severe mental health issues, way worse than before, that have ruined my life thusfar.
I was clever too, "I've never seen grades like this" clever. My mind is now mush.
The anger does not serve your cause though. It just causes you pain. It will also cause others pain if you kill anyone. I do, also, understand that anger makes you not give a damn.
I say this, revenge is not true justice, fixing your mind is. You don't deserve anger crushing your soul and blood on your hands - how is that just to you?
Get fixed, get mental health services involved.