It's not abnormal, though not entirely common either. Basically, somewhere along the line you developed the need to prove yourself and separate the normalcy of your situation away from something, like your parents and upbringing or group of friends. It could even have been something as simple as a parent leaving and you felt as though they left because you weren't good enough, or you did something to cause their lack of emotional connection to you. Something that made you want to rise above the normal. Often this happen in the opposite direction; a girl is promiscuous to give up something good for attention or a guy throws away a good opportunity as a jock or something because they rebel against others to prove superiority. The only problem here is that you're not doing what will give attention, superiority, pity or any of the other useless emotions that we fall back on to give us the self pleasure we seek during these confusing episodes. A slutty person doesn't feel better after screwing the football team. The A-student doesn't feel better after dropping out of school. The pimp guy doesn't feel better after screwing the innocent girl and humiliating her. All of these dramatic emotionally-driven episodes are derived from a need to shake up or reignite a person's ego after a traumatic or lackluster experience. Talk it out with friends or family, or at least sit and think about what it REALLY is that's causing you to want to live these moments in such a way.
Is it normal to want everyone to HATE me
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It's not abnormal, though not entirely common either. Basically, somewhere along the line you developed the need to prove yourself and separate the normalcy of your situation away from something, like your parents and upbringing or group of friends. It could even have been something as simple as a parent leaving and you felt as though they left because you weren't good enough, or you did something to cause their lack of emotional connection to you. Something that made you want to rise above the normal. Often this happen in the opposite direction; a girl is promiscuous to give up something good for attention or a guy throws away a good opportunity as a jock or something because they rebel against others to prove superiority. The only problem here is that you're not doing what will give attention, superiority, pity or any of the other useless emotions that we fall back on to give us the self pleasure we seek during these confusing episodes. A slutty person doesn't feel better after screwing the football team. The A-student doesn't feel better after dropping out of school. The pimp guy doesn't feel better after screwing the innocent girl and humiliating her. All of these dramatic emotionally-driven episodes are derived from a need to shake up or reignite a person's ego after a traumatic or lackluster experience. Talk it out with friends or family, or at least sit and think about what it REALLY is that's causing you to want to live these moments in such a way.