Is it normal to want everyone to hate me

To be honest everything that I do it's with the intention of having people to hate me. I just do things like that. For example in school I only get good grades just to show everyone up, later, when I have a bitchin job and see them broke and homeless. and it's not difficult. Basically doing everything I can to make people feel stupid, and worthless. Because they are. Family, i want to do things that go the wrong way against them. In a way I feel at ease, seeing everyone's hateful reactions to me. It just confirms that they never liked me anyway. wasn't always that way though. I want so badly to believe that people do like me or love me but I can't. Sometimes i feel guilty and sad where I want to kill myself. Then those feelings go away because I realize how everyone would be laughing and happy if I died. And that gives me motivation to move on.

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Based on 148 votes (49 yes)
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  • Jan

    No, it's not normal. You're probably feeling this way because you really want to be loved, it's a defense mechanism called reaction formation. You're basically doing the opposite of what you really want. You want to be loved, but you feel that no one loves you so you strive to make them hate you. The truth is, someone loves you. You may not know it but they do. No one would laugh if you died, and they definitely wouldn't be happy. If you really think people will be glad when you die you should stop trying to make their lives horrible. If people like you, they'll miss you.

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  • MESOMIKE

    Your "supposed" hatred towards others is an expression of how you feel towards yourself. It is called projection...

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  • its normal to be an attention seeker dont worry :)

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  • Echoes

    You get good grades and make money when everybody else is broke, so I believe you're strong-willed and determined,right?
    My suggestion is..... make a pact with yourself to force yourself to be nice and loving to everybody for a month and see how it goes......

    Can you measure up to that, tough guy?

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  • yourenottheonlyone

    No i dont believe that it's normal but it's definantly not uncommen. If you crave to be loved you need to act in sync with how you want to be treated. It may be hard and I can understand why you may be treating people like that because sometimes when I'm angry at someone what I really want is their affection. Try to remember that no, people aren't worthless but the way you are treating them is as though they are. Good luck :)

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  • Jraiderz

    It is callled "Kanye west" douchebag asshole jerkoff syndrome buddy.

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  • funnymoments

    see a psychotherapist honey

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  • AbnormalTimes10

    I don't care whether it's normal or not - but I feel like this at the moment, not all the time, just at certain points of my life.

    You are getting good grades, the normal and healthy reaction should be being proud of yourself, instead you focus on your behaviour -you are hating yourself for being proud and hating yourself for liking the fact that others aren't doing as well as you.

    People have probably got jealous of you getting good grades and feel annoyed when you speak of them, this is very common, but instead of focusing on the fault of others being jealous and probably wanting or wishing you would fail at something, you focus on yourself, you take on board others lack of character and blame yourself - which turns into self loathing.

    I reckon deep down you wish people would like you, and you have probably acted in a very likeable way - but now you have given up - you hate yourself, you feel like rubbish, and you probably have got a lot of suppressed anger inside of you - angry how others aren't pleased for your achievements, but because you suppress the anger it turns into anger toward yourself.

    I may have got this completely wrong, I was writing from my perspective, what I have done, what I still do now.

    But for me, I don't always feel like this, I do have a lot of good days where I feel like I'm a nice person, and it largely depends on the people around me, whether they accept me, care for me, respect me. When that happens I am a really lovely person, when I'm around people who don't care, want me to suffer, look down on me, then the hatred and self-loathing comes back, deep down I want them to approve of me, but I give up and I want them to hate me, because then my self-loathing, my anger towards myself turns into being angry at someone else.

    It's really good that you can recognise the fact that you want everyone to hate you whilst you are still at school or I presume you are? a lot of people do this and don't recognise it until much later - you seem to have a lot of emotional intelligence for your age and the ability to look at yourself reflectively, this is a really good quality to have, you also come across as a very honest person - when I read your question, I didn't see a bad person, I saw this instead.

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  • boston12

    i hate you

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  • Beckzy

    get help. not in a bad way but get help.

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  • isnt anyone in your family happy for your successes? are they all jealous? this is strange in itself (if its true)

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  • misterguydude

    It's not abnormal, though not entirely common either. Basically, somewhere along the line you developed the need to prove yourself and separate the normalcy of your situation away from something, like your parents and upbringing or group of friends. It could even have been something as simple as a parent leaving and you felt as though they left because you weren't good enough, or you did something to cause their lack of emotional connection to you. Something that made you want to rise above the normal. Often this happen in the opposite direction; a girl is promiscuous to give up something good for attention or a guy throws away a good opportunity as a jock or something because they rebel against others to prove superiority. The only problem here is that you're not doing what will give attention, superiority, pity or any of the other useless emotions that we fall back on to give us the self pleasure we seek during these confusing episodes. A slutty person doesn't feel better after screwing the football team. The A-student doesn't feel better after dropping out of school. The pimp guy doesn't feel better after screwing the innocent girl and humiliating her. All of these dramatic emotionally-driven episodes are derived from a need to shake up or reignite a person's ego after a traumatic or lackluster experience. Talk it out with friends or family, or at least sit and think about what it REALLY is that's causing you to want to live these moments in such a way.

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  • Thinglike

    I find this all the time, but not so badly. What I did to improve things is made a new, unfriendly friend, someone who speaks thier mind no matter how upset it could make a person. Then you know that they aren't going to lie just save themselves from being guilty. You will know if they love you or hate you, and why. And then try and get them to like you as much as possible. It worked so well for me because now I have a friend that I can trust likes me, and can help me out finding out who really does and doesn't like me.

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  • ikaboo

    yea dude i hate everyone too . its normal ithink

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  • haha fuck you. btw I'm a chick, not fat and not ugly, at least from the comments of others.

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  • One day you won't be fat & ugly

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  • kricket

    You are delusional.

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  • Jen118584

    Talk to a psychiatrist. They will be able to help you learn to train yourself to think differently and express yourself more positively. Find balance in your life.

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  • --ash--

    I hate you!

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    • Lockets

      Hey, don't say stupid things like that. This person seeks comfort and help so a mad comment like that shows that you are very shallow.
      Poster, I wish you all the best and you shouldn't be feeling this way. You have more to offer, believe me.

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