I think of weird shit too, and ESPECIALLY when I'm driving! But I know why I think of it. Normally someone sets me off. They put me down, or make me feel like I'm not good enough or something, so then I think, "What if I just knocked them out?".But I kinda know I never will. That would mess up my life, and theirs too.
And I honestly was just thinking about this about an hour ago when I was out with my mom. I kept thinking to myself, I hope I don't do anything that I know I'm gonna regret in a fit of rage or in the heat of the moment sorta thing.
I mean, I got into an argument with my brother a couple nights ago. He was getting on my last nerve, and I decided to listen to my music. He came over and pulled my head phones out of my ears, so I got really angry. I picked up a newspaper b/c it was the closest thing to me that I could throw, and then I stormed out of my house, and took a drive b/c I thought I was gonna punch him or something. So I just thought to myself, "I have to leave". I have to go somewhere. I need to cool off. I ended up driving around aimlessly in tears for only about 10 minutes, and then said, "fuck it! I'm going to my sisters, and I'll cry to her about it." I really just needed to vent to someone, and I really don't have many people I can talk to, and its hard to spill stuff to friends sometimes, so I went there. We went shopping, and I became level headed, but felt such guilt for the way I acted. It was disgusting!
What works best for me, is obviously just stopping myself, and saying, "You know you can't do something so stupid like that(punching him.)" And I run away to cool off.
is it normal to think of killing
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I think of weird shit too, and ESPECIALLY when I'm driving! But I know why I think of it. Normally someone sets me off. They put me down, or make me feel like I'm not good enough or something, so then I think, "What if I just knocked them out?".But I kinda know I never will. That would mess up my life, and theirs too.
And I honestly was just thinking about this about an hour ago when I was out with my mom. I kept thinking to myself, I hope I don't do anything that I know I'm gonna regret in a fit of rage or in the heat of the moment sorta thing.
I mean, I got into an argument with my brother a couple nights ago. He was getting on my last nerve, and I decided to listen to my music. He came over and pulled my head phones out of my ears, so I got really angry. I picked up a newspaper b/c it was the closest thing to me that I could throw, and then I stormed out of my house, and took a drive b/c I thought I was gonna punch him or something. So I just thought to myself, "I have to leave". I have to go somewhere. I need to cool off. I ended up driving around aimlessly in tears for only about 10 minutes, and then said, "fuck it! I'm going to my sisters, and I'll cry to her about it." I really just needed to vent to someone, and I really don't have many people I can talk to, and its hard to spill stuff to friends sometimes, so I went there. We went shopping, and I became level headed, but felt such guilt for the way I acted. It was disgusting!
What works best for me, is obviously just stopping myself, and saying, "You know you can't do something so stupid like that(punching him.)" And I run away to cool off.