Is it normal to think of death even when i am not depressed

I tried to kill myself today. And I know it is not depression, cause I've been diagnosed with depression and I take antidepressants, I do not show symptoms anymore.

But I feel so useless and small and my self esteem is so bad. I feel like all my friends don't like me and the worst of all is that I have a perfect life. Dying seems so easy and comforting. I am really really tired.

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  • bbrown95

    Being on antidepressants doesn't necessarily mean you aren't depressed. In my case, they caused a lot of emotional turmoil for me and made me the most depressed I've ever been in my entire life, as well as emotionally numb (which is a scary and depressing feeling in and of itself, in my experience). Not showing typical symptoms also does not necessarily mean you're not depressed.

    I'm very sorry you're going through this right now, and I hope you can seek the appropriate help to get to where you no longer feel this way. I wish I had good advice to offer you, but really, what works for each person is so different that it's best you work with a qualified mental health professional who knows your situation and what steps would be best to take to get you in a better headspace. I wish you the best!

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  • Orphan

    If u kill yourself there is always gonna be someone out there that's gonna laugh about it. So dont ever do it

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