Is it normal to think about sex constantly and not be able to stop?
Ever since I was a little girl I have been obsessed with sex. I think about it constantly, I used to masturbate or seek out sex constantly and now that I'm older, even if the drive isn't always there I find it really interesting and find ways to talk about it or read about it or see it. I feel really outcasted because when I used to actively seek out talking about it people would blow me off all the time so I started hiding it a bit so I could have normal relationships. I ended up taking a string of lovers and doing weird sexual acts with strangers because I just wanted it a part of my life. I considered getting into porn because I wanted it a part of my life but I found the industry to be somewhat annoying because its more about just commercial sexy and there's no depth. My obsession with it is not just sexual or to get pleasure its also about human closeness and surrender and exposing yourself and naked-ness. I have never been able to turn it off and it has mentally and physically gone to the dark side (taboo, disease, physical harm/danger). I don't know how to turn it off and sometimes I want to and sometimes I just want other people to be where I am mentally or at least sympathize with how I think. Because of the stigma of sex I can't normalize what I'm feeling and even a therapist tries to find the causes of it. I make everything "dirty", I sexualize everyone (not in a predator way) and I just don't understand it. Is this normal?