Is it normal to still love someone who totally f**ked up your life?
Dear Friends;
First of all I am not normal I already knew that since I was younger but anyways. So I feel in love with a guy and it all started very good, he was like prince charming and my everything. At that time I fell in love with him like crazy. Later on I started to find out he is flirting with other girls and then he cheated on me, I freaked out but then I forgave him cause I loved him so much. Later on the relationship became very abusive, he started being nasty, telling me he just likes to have sex with me but he doesnt love me; screwing other girls who I know, messing up my relationships with my friends and my co-workers. Telling gossips about me and make the whole story look like we never had a relationship and I was his stalker. Which wasn't the case. I know all of the above are enough to call a guy a big jerk and leave him behind. But every time I tried to go away he would come back all sweet and nice and I could not resist. Also we had an incredible sexual chemistry. But one day he stops talking to me and there is no way to reach him. And I keep asking to myself why am I keep being hurt, still trying to prove myself to this guy; why do I want him back and most importantly why do I still love him? I know it's not normal but I dunno what to do about this cause he's stuck in my mind and I can't love anyone else for a really long time.