IIN to still have a small flame for an ex friend

its a long complicated story but ill try to explain it:
he staged this intervention with all of our friends. we were a group of five. Apparently they were discussing how i felt about each of them. They all thought i hated them except for one(it wasnt the guy i had feelings for) he just stood and watched the show. they surrounded me, confronting me about how i apparently hated them all. the guy i had feelings for, thought i hated him because he thought i knew that he was starting to suspect that i was gay(hopefully that makes sense).(surprise, im a guy who is gay lol) i was DEEP in the closet at the time but i guess the guy who i had feelings for knew me better than i knew myself. In that moment, i never felt so humiliated and alone, these were my friends who i cared for so much and they all were talking about me behind my back and whats worst is that they were assuming the worst, that i could actually hate them. which i didnt, well not until that very moment. i was so angry,hurt and surprised by all of it, i walked away. the guy i had feelings for called after me, i couldnt turn around because i was crying and very angry. after the incident he kept coming to my door for months but every time i slammed the door in his face. i think back and kick myself because i made it bigger than it was but i guess in high school everything is a big deal but it really isn't lol.