Is it normal to still feel so lost in my life?

I am 28 and still dating. I am in a long distance relationship with a seemingly nice girl that lives about an hour and a half away. I've got a ton of birth defects so I'm not the best looking guy in the world. I feel lucky to have just lost my virginity much less to have a cute girl I'm dating. I only got one ear, bad back, was bad clef lip and almost died when I was born. I still live at home with my parents and I'm trying to save money to move out as soon as I possibly can. I'm also scared I'm losing my hearing because of a ENT problem I'm having. Since I play music this is not helping my mood either. I work at walmart and have kept a job there for 7 years selling electronics. I feel like I'm not going anywhere and I'm not even sure where to go. Its like I'm drowning in my own life. I can barely pay bills. I don't know if I should go to college or even what I would want to do if I did. I am scared that I'll be like this the rest of my life. Scared that if I go deaf I'll be nuts because of losing my ability to play music (besides the drums). I can sit and listen to suggestions all day but I just can't seem to make myself do anything. If it weren't for music, comics, and a ghostbusters cosplay group I'd lose my mind completely. I am utterly overwhelmed with everything right now. Is this normal? I doubt it.