Is it normal to sponanteously visualize acts of extreme violence?
Before I start, let me establish some things.
I am six foot two, with a full beard. I wear a trench coat and fingerless gloves to my school, and I'm generally antisocial. However, I am not what this image suggests. I am somewhat of a geek, and I've never handled a real gun in my life.
I was walking through sears the other day with my parents. They were looking at lawn mowers or something, I don't remember. I wandered off, because they were busy and I was bored. I was strolling up and down the aisles, occupying my time. Eventually, I came to a rack of axes. Yellow plastic handles, about four feet long, double-bladed. The handles looked weird, I wondered what it felt like.
As soon as it was in my hands, I just got this series of images, unbidden, into my head. It was me, at my school, slaughtering students and laughing loudly as they panicked and ran about. Very detailed, disturbingly vivid.
This completely freaked me out. I set the axe down and left.
I am not a violent person. I doubt I would even have the stomach to bludgeon someone, let alone go on an axe rampage. I don't hate anyone in particular at my school, and I could think of no reason to even have an axe at my house. So why did these images come so suddenly and so strongly?
Seriously, this is starting to scare me.