There is no one right way to grieve the loss of a loved one, and there's no cosmic law that means an individual will grieve exactly the same way every time someone they care about departs from their life.
From what you say, it sounds like you'd been thinking about your grandfather's impending death for some time before it happened. That sort of preparation often does a lot to soften the blow. I suspect you started working your way through the classic stages of denial, bargaining, anger and depression before he died, so his passing wasn't nearly as much of a shock to you as it could have been. Maybe you have some way to go before you reach the acceptance stage, but it sounds like you're on your way already.
Also, the fact that your grandmother died - apparently not that long ago - means that the grieving process is no longer a completely novel thing for you. You've been through the mill and come out the other end, so you're not constantly wondering what the hell is going on in your head, if the turmoil will ever stop and how you'll ever manage to carry on following the disappearance of someone who's been a constant fixture in your life for as long as you can remember.
People can learn to come to terms with death and the grieving process. It's never enjoyable to lose someone you really care about, but it is possible to learn how to cope with that and move forward.
It's interesting how you mention your Catholicism. My perception is that the Church does push the message that you need to suffer if you're to be a good Catholic and in fact you deserve to suffer. If you've internalised that BS, then it's not surprising for you to feel some degree of guilt about not being totally devastated by the death of your grandfather.
You shouldn't feel that way. You're dealing with your grandfather's death in the way you're dealing with it. You have the right to do that, and you shouldn't listen to anyone who tries to tell you that you're not feeling the right things or not suffering enough.
IIN to skip the grieving process
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There is no one right way to grieve the loss of a loved one, and there's no cosmic law that means an individual will grieve exactly the same way every time someone they care about departs from their life.
From what you say, it sounds like you'd been thinking about your grandfather's impending death for some time before it happened. That sort of preparation often does a lot to soften the blow. I suspect you started working your way through the classic stages of denial, bargaining, anger and depression before he died, so his passing wasn't nearly as much of a shock to you as it could have been. Maybe you have some way to go before you reach the acceptance stage, but it sounds like you're on your way already.
Also, the fact that your grandmother died - apparently not that long ago - means that the grieving process is no longer a completely novel thing for you. You've been through the mill and come out the other end, so you're not constantly wondering what the hell is going on in your head, if the turmoil will ever stop and how you'll ever manage to carry on following the disappearance of someone who's been a constant fixture in your life for as long as you can remember.
People can learn to come to terms with death and the grieving process. It's never enjoyable to lose someone you really care about, but it is possible to learn how to cope with that and move forward.
It's interesting how you mention your Catholicism. My perception is that the Church does push the message that you need to suffer if you're to be a good Catholic and in fact you deserve to suffer. If you've internalised that BS, then it's not surprising for you to feel some degree of guilt about not being totally devastated by the death of your grandfather.
You shouldn't feel that way. You're dealing with your grandfather's death in the way you're dealing with it. You have the right to do that, and you shouldn't listen to anyone who tries to tell you that you're not feeling the right things or not suffering enough.