Is it normal to self restrain myself so much?

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Naturally I would be criminally out of control

I used to be like that till I boxed myself in.

Now I feel like im repressed.

I feel guilty for feeling any form of emotion.
I shouldnt be happy - I dont deserveit
I shouldnt feel sad - Ive nothing to be upset about
I shouldnt be angry - Thats bad mannered and disrespectful
and god forbid i should feel anything of an "adult" nature... i feel like a whore just admiting I like someone.

I'm at a point where my feelings burst out.
Where I can have urges so strong its like a g-force.
Visions of releasing them and having to bite my lip and stop myself before i did anything that would blacken my name.

Is this normal?

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  • CreamPuffs
    7 years ago

    Same, but it's really not normal at all.

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  • helice
    12 years ago

    Perhaps you should turn to writing your feelings out for some form of release. You can reread them and consider where they stem from and whether you can sate them in a healthy way.

    Perhaps seeing a therapist can give you an outlet. I find that most of my rage dissipates once I express it.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    It doesn't sound mentally sane if you want to kill people and you have urges to be violent. Though I respect you for your self control, you're doing the right thing, even if you feel repressed. Because if you don't control yourself, you might really damage your life, and many other people's, and you're only here for a short time on this planet to do the best you can.

    Talk to someone or seek some help -- no one is going to blame you for that!

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  • thinkingaboutit
    12 years ago

    The real questions here are:

    why do you feel guilty for no reason
    why dont you deserve to be happy
    why do you think your worth being ignored, by yourself especially.
    who taught you retaliation is a bad thing? why are you ashamed of it?
    again why do you feel guilty about sex. out of all the other people in this world, what makes you think you least deserve to be sexual?

    You hate yourself. It's neurotic, but it's not your fault. It's your responsibility to stop hating yourself though.

    And no, the emotions you describe does not predispose you to being a criminal. Which, by the way, is a self accusation. It really also hints that you think your not in control of your life.

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    • Austalien
      12 years ago

      Well said you could be a great psychologist instead of them handing out pharma drugs :)

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