Is it normal to seek revenge on you own family?
I dont like my family that much. I am the fourth of five kids and I feel a little bit ignored. I have been a good kid. I have never done anything really stupid or insane. My grades have always been slightly above average, but nothing special and for that reason I feel like I have been overlooked.
My oldest sister was the perfect one. My next sister was the black sheep. My older brother was the rebellious one. My younger brother was the baby. And I was "the filler." I was just there. Nothing special. Just a living organism existing to fill a familiar gap.
Because of this, Being older now (21), I don't feel that I should give any treatment to my family, namely my parents. Or in other words, I have the desire to treat them now how they treated me growing up.
I always knew that they were there "for" me, but never there "with" me. My past is filled with innumerable unkept promises from my father just because they didn't mean enough for him to remember he made them and Countless times of being overlooked by my mother by one of my other siblings. To this day I call my parents by their first name. I haven't called them "mom" or "dad" since I was in middle school.
That sounds crazy, but is that normal?