Is it normal to realize you are polyamorous after being married?
Okay.. A bit of background I guess? I am married to basically my first and only boyfriend. We met online and fell in love. I am pansexual/demisexual, meaning I have sexual attraction regardless of gender/sexuality.. It has more to do with the specific person. I always have been this way. This is something else I have been struggling with since I was very young being brought up in a very religious household.
Edit: I added this as a reply to someone but I guess it might be helpful context. [Actually I was quite sheltered. I was sexually abused by a family member and I was bullied my entire youth so I didn't have many friends or interactions with people in general. To be honest I probably would have realized polyamorous tendencies if I had had any relationships when I was younger. I am just now discovering things about my sexuality. The thing is I don't want to cheat on my husband at all. I want him to be apart of whatever I am doing (if not sexually at least as friends).. I love him so much and am so grateful he is in my life. But I also feel these feelings towards people and I'm not really sure what I should do with them. I don't know if I really worded this all correctly but I see where you are coming from completely. Hopefully this extra information might be useful?]
Anyways to come to my question, is it normal to find out or discover you are polyamorous after being married? I love my husband.. But I also have crushes on other people? I am very confused where these feelings come from. I want to be monogamous but the more I read about polyamory the more it just seems to click with me. So is this normal??