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I don't want to care for anyone, regardless of who they are. Not my family nor my friends. I have tried to care for them but my mind practically shuts down. I feel ugly even though my parents and sister say I'm not. ( I don't wear makeup.) I thought that could help everyone understand. Thank you very much.
I think I sort of know how you feel - I find it impossible to care about a significant other in any kind of way that society would see as 'normal'. There've been times that I've tried really really hard to love someone, but I just physically can't. For me I think it might be that I try very hard to love & respect all people and to give everyone a chance, so I end up caring about everyone in a very general 'I wish you the best, let's all be happy now' kind of way - but if I'm doing this, maybe some part of my mind won't let me play favourites and truly care about one particular person?
Also to address the self-esteem issue (which I can also relate to), for me I find it's sort of a self-defense mechanism. Because of how you feel about yourself, you find it very hard to believe that others could care about you, so some part of you won't let you care about anyone else. Possibly because your rational mind knows that unrequited love is the most painful thing in the world and it's trying to protect you from it.
I dunno. Maybe one or both of those thoughts is applicable to you. But if this is the case, please know that you are wrong - you ARE lovable and you don't need makeup to be beautiful. A minority of people find makeup the most unappealing thing on the planet (I'm part of this camp) and actually like to see what a person looks like naturally. It's also a lot easier to see & appreciate a person's true self when they aren't disguising themselves with cosmetics. Trust me, you just have to find someone that feels this way and have a good conversation about it. You'll realize that these are the people whose love/friendship/respect you actually want. *HUGS* (if you want them)
Already do that. :) However the problem is that my school is accelerated so we do tons of projects that require groups. I do the work and I'm fine with being alone,but people annoy me. They act like they want to assist me, yet constantly they end up using me, like cheating off my work. (Which I realize I shouldn't allow them to do.) Thank you for your comment.