Is it normal to not like the feeling of love?

I use to think I didn't like the feeling of love but then I digged deep and saw it wasn't love that I didn't like the feeling of... It was anxiety and the obsession over another person that I didn't like the feeling of. Love is suppose to be a very wonderful, joyous feeling and pure. If it hurts or it gives you anxiety then its probably not love that you are feeling. I think its gross when I see couples tongue kissing and engaging in sexual activity in front of everyone. That is gross but thats not love that I am witnessing that is lust at its finest. My question to you, is do you ever want to BE loved? Have you ever had someone love you unconditionally? Have you experience love for and from your family? Your parents? Or did you lack love in that field as well. Maybe this "love" that you are trying to run away from the most is what will make you the most happiest in life once you finally recieve it. Don't worry, I don't think I have ever experience love either, not even from my parents. So you are not alone.