I feel the exact same way, at the exact same period of life as you are, in the late college years.
The ironic thing is I first felt this in my second year, I tried to make friends, and it actually worked. For around a year or so I actually had the friends I wanted, I was next-door neigbours with someone who became one of my best friends. He was very cool and introduced me to his social circle etc, had a great time when I was with them, hung out often for most of a year. But then he finished school and left. So I guess I had a life for a year. I really miss them now.
But now he's gone I feel as if my other friends want to do less social things and focus on their studies and stuff. The problem is I don't really enjoy studying anymore, so it gets really depressing on the friday nights when I have nothing to do or nobody to go out with.
The worst part is I think I alienated a lot of people I could have hung out with, partially because I was/kinda still am selfish person and partially because of social inepitude. Like that friend of mine I was talking about, I remember this one night when he clearly wanted me to do something with him, but I was just kept making excuses because I was really shut down that night. I regret that because I think of what a great friend he was and I should have just hung out as a friend. So yeah, I guess I feel guilty too.
I feel my social circle is actually shrinking, I don't even have the energy to keep trying anymore sometimes. I feel so lonely and friendless right now because most of the people I am friends are far away, and I'm not sure if things will get better once they come back.
Is it normal to not have many friends in college?
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I feel the exact same way, at the exact same period of life as you are, in the late college years.
The ironic thing is I first felt this in my second year, I tried to make friends, and it actually worked. For around a year or so I actually had the friends I wanted, I was next-door neigbours with someone who became one of my best friends. He was very cool and introduced me to his social circle etc, had a great time when I was with them, hung out often for most of a year. But then he finished school and left. So I guess I had a life for a year. I really miss them now.
But now he's gone I feel as if my other friends want to do less social things and focus on their studies and stuff. The problem is I don't really enjoy studying anymore, so it gets really depressing on the friday nights when I have nothing to do or nobody to go out with.
The worst part is I think I alienated a lot of people I could have hung out with, partially because I was/kinda still am selfish person and partially because of social inepitude. Like that friend of mine I was talking about, I remember this one night when he clearly wanted me to do something with him, but I was just kept making excuses because I was really shut down that night. I regret that because I think of what a great friend he was and I should have just hung out as a friend. So yeah, I guess I feel guilty too.
I feel my social circle is actually shrinking, I don't even have the energy to keep trying anymore sometimes. I feel so lonely and friendless right now because most of the people I am friends are far away, and I'm not sure if things will get better once they come back.