Is it normal to not feel part of your own race?
I guess I've been immensely westernized, but I seriously hate some parts of the Asian culture. Here, people are narrow-minded and very conservative (beyond the positive extent). I know I should follow my own frickin' culture, but I just feel different. My parents always ask me why I never talk about boys, because to be honest, living in this Asian country all my life probably drove me to go asexual. The people here are unfriendly, shit-mannered, and minor PDA makes everyone mad.
The guys here have bad greasy hair (e.g. bowl cuts) bleached blonde, wear small glasses and have pimply faces with huge flat button noses and terrible English pronunication. I consider myself bisexual, but girls here act super kawaii and cutesy + "innocent" which is really gross in my opinion. I kind of find Asians ugly, including myself, which sucks.
Also I hate Chinese dramas and music, which is why I am absolutely repelled by the ones who like them. There were a few cases of girls showing bralettes/wearing tops with open backs and getting criticized by everyone. Sometimes it makes me super annoyed. I go to a girls' school, and nearly everyone feels the same way, and that they don't care about Southeast/East Asian guys. The thing is, I'm questioning the morale behind this.
Is it terrible that I'm being such a douche to my own society?