Is it normal to not believe people when they say i am pretty?

I suffer from cystic acne.. but not like it covers my entire face.. maybe around 2-4 cystic acne which can be covered by foundation. and I go to my dermatologist every month.. I have some mild scars but I want perfect skin!

I just lost my self esteem because of these.. and I feel like I look so dirty. even though majority of people consider me as "pretty" "beautiful" cause they think I am almost perfect (if it wasn't for my pimples - which they say can be treated anyway so they tell me I should still be thankful)

I would like to believe them.. but if you suffer from acne like I do (for more than 10 years now).. you'll lose your self esteem.

I really think I am a pretty girl... I am cute, I have dimples, large round eyes... and beautiful smile and curvy body and nice hair.. but for me, it still couldn't compensate much for such bad skin :( people keep telling me I am beautiful and I should not feel bad about it because it's not that visible.. but still, I just think they are being nice on me :\

I still feel bad. I just want good, clear skin.. and I remember back in highschool, I was bullied and was teased about my acne.. even my ex called me "spongebob" because of tiny holes (acne craters) on my face. and.. they just hurt.. I know, it's funny but I still couldn't forget about all the teasing and bullying :(

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  • no one is perfect and if they do look perfect maybe the personality suffers, relax and smile that makes you beautiful too

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    • cherrysauce

      yeah, smiling helps a lot. but I get tired smiling :)) but thank you! :* i'm starting to feel better.

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  • Quiblum

    that sucks girl. boo on pimples(((( i don't see the prob if make up can cover it up. it'll wear off or at least you can treat it.

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    • cherrysauce

      everytime my pimples wear off, another set grows on my other cheek.. kinda frustrating me as i never experienced good skin just for once starting my teenage life.

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  • Anime7

    I hope you know that the only person lowering your self esteem is yourself. You should believe your friends when they say that you are attractive. You said yourself that you think you're beautiful, so why can't other people think that as well?

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    • cherrysauce

      I pretty much believe that I can be beautiful but when I look into the mirror, all I see are scars.. and even my mom was commenting about how pimples fucked up my face. and her face was just saying like "omg what happened to your face... full of scars! told you you shouldn't pick them" and the thing is, I don't pick them! :(

      i just want normal skin.. and it costs me a lot. like money and self esteem

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      • Anime7

        Do you honestly believe that guys wouldn't do a double take when they see you because of your skin? I'll admit that your mom did sound a bit harsh, but you should've corrected her and told her that there is nothing wrong with your face.

        I've been in your shoes before except it was with my hair. People use to torture me for having a puffy mess on my head. I'll admit it sucked but you know what i did? I looked in the mirror every day and gave myself a compliment.

        The best advice that I can give you is to accept yourself as beautiful and never let anyone's words harm your self esteem. Love will find you, beauty captures the eye but personality captures the heart

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  • Alison89

    I don't understand how you can think you're pretty and not think you're pretty at the same time. People tell you you're pretty and you don't believe them, but then you also believe you are pretty.

    Also, I don't know why your self-esteem is so closely connected to your pimples. Your value as a person is more than just whether you have pimples or not.

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    • cherrysauce

      because it's the first thing people comment on.. just yesterday, someone told me that my face is getting clearer. It was a compliment, but I thought they were not paying attention to my cheeks before :\

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  • mumbum

    That's sad! I understand how you feel. What ppl say to us really matters and really hurts. Look at the skin of those around you... You might be surprised at how uneven it is or how big their pores are, or the marks and scars they have too. I have had skin probs too and I have just hit on the right treatment after years of similar probs.. It does effect your self esteem. I know! Look outside of yourself and study other ppls skin. They have blemishes etc but you still like or love them, right?!... :) it takes time...

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    • cherrysauce

      yes, thank you! I've been undergoing chemical procedures from my derma but they are too expensive.. which is kinda frustrating because I have other problems to think about other than my bad skin =( it's just like everyone else have normal-looking skin, compared to mine with cystic, holes and blemishes..

      but yeah, I'm feeling better now because they are starting to fade (though slowly)

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  • Rachelle_InHighHeels

    And all this happens where..? Kindergarten..? It'll pass..
    Rachelle

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    • cherrysauce

      kindergarten, acne? haha, nope. of course teenage years :))

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