Is it normal to not be able to control my accent
I've noticed that when I speak out loud to myself or in my head, I always talk in a perfect American accent. But when I speak to other people, especially people who have American accents, my foreign accent is more noticeable. And I can feel that it happens automatically without being able to do anything about it. I think there is something psychological going on. I know I have some social anxiety which often does not allow me to express myself as naturally as I would like. Also I feel insecure around Americans and like I am not "American enough" to fit in with them so it makes me speak and sometimes act in strange ways. It's difficult to explain, like I am subconsciously trying to hold on to what makes me different and unique but also paranoid about alienating myself from others.