Is it normal to never have felt as if i belong here?
I don't mean belonging to a group or place. I mean the whole human race. Since I was very young (feet did not touch the floor when I sat anywhere) I always felt out of place and homesick. For what or where I am not sure. I would just get that sour homesick feeling in the pit of my stomach and then chills. I have been a loner my entire life. My phone rarely rings and I prefer it that way. I have been considered by many above average in beauty and intelligence, but that has never made me feel better. People wanting me or my time makes me feel even more ill at ease. Even now I am filled with the frustration a person stranded on another planet would experience. The horrible things that happen in this world affect me in a way that is not normal. I almost always cry when I witness an injustice or even see anyone else cry and watching violence has made me throw up more than once. I am afraid I will never feel at home. I hate it here so much I am almost convinced there has to be somewhere else for this strong emotion to make sense. I wasn't particularly sheltered nor do I feel self-righteous about my opinions. Just sad and frustrated. Am I weird?