Is it normal to make reality?

I had a nagging question that had to be asked, because I don't know, not because I think it's normal or not. So here it is, I smashed empty glass jars and the police must like me because they keep seeing me every time I commit some crimes. It's an odd thing with the law, no matter how good you think you were at the time, you could be breaking the law without even knowing it! It turns out this weird law is that it's illegal to smash glass in public if it doesn't belong to you (think about it, you can do what you want with your own things and it's dangerous!), I couldn't win with the law: I do it privately and I still get a friendly chat with the police, I obey the law, feel clean and it doesn't feel right, it's too sweet, then I break the law by stealing a Pepsi and then all is right with the criminal world again. It's odd that it feels good to break the law, and feels dirty, I felt as if I needed a shower for that dirty crime. But since it's legally a philosophy I can steal as much as I like (as long as I get away with it). Everyone else is with this immoral belief that it's bad, therefore it works: I want to be bad (evil to be precise, I don't just steal, I make it look, smell and feel evil that I've done it once I'm out of the store), I'm trying to make it illegal but the police won't believe me, my religion is doing crime. What I mean is I'm trying to make real crime, it worked with the belief intact with smashing jars, I did it unintentionally and intentionally at the same time, so I wanted to break an actual law only I didn't know it was a law. If I say I'll smash glass I do it, it's reality, no one can handle this, I wanted to make a good and bad reality, not an ugly one, smashing two more jars felt better, it was a release, then I decided to stop doing it. I made reality otherwise, the reality that people don't tell me to fuck off except for ignorant neighbours and stupid arseholes. It did work, but nobody else was telling me to fuck off. I made the reality sceptical of all pessimism but my own that if I don't take my medications I won't go to hospital, this can be played for a little while, until the ignorant police stop to realize I'm not sick, I know what I'm doing and therefore without medications I'll go to jail, that's their logic. It's rather stupid, but police are dealing with stupid people therefore they get stupid logic thrown at them because they're no longer innocent, they're finally criminals, this is why I push the envelope and force the law to stop treating me like a patient, it worked, I'm now a criminal, yay! At least I get McDonald's in the jail cell. They will 'cater' to my fancy lacto-pescetarian diet: a Fillet O' Fish, they don't care whether it's fancy, but at least it's the best punishment I ever had (years ago), but crime is not my only reality, it was also formed by other people, I was told of not being Christian, to remain pagan and Luciferian, I'll do it, and hating at Jesus and Christianity, telling them of a theosophy fake religion (it's a fake religion because it's not worship, it's not ardour and faith, etc, it's mysticism when it's meant to be a religious fantasy world), I was told Christianity will make me happy, despite the fact all those sects of Christianity felt fruity, it never felt right, therefore I think I'm learning that Christianity isn't for me, lest I blaspheme religiously about Jesus Crust who broke crust of bread and dipped it in blood and pointed it at his misfortune (betrayal), and he died a stupid death and suddenly he's a hero because now he's dead, wow! No wonder I hate it! Christians repeatedly brainwash me and I repeatedly stop believing in it, every time, which tells me I want to hate it, so other people are making my reality too, mostly my reaction to things I don't like or care about. Is that normal?